ai dee ya

it sure do...

2011-11-13T05:44:00.000-08:00

it sure do sucks, when someone only come looking for you when they need something you can offer, and then pretend like you dont even exist when they dont need anything from you.

it sure do sucks, when the time when you need them comes, and they are not there. all that's there is their excuses.

it sure do sucks, when you're the only one thinking about them, but they never once stop for a second to even remember you.

it sure do sucks, when you are the only one hurting....

kamu jahat.

2011-10-30T08:57:00.001-07:00

aku rindu kamu. tapi kamu dah tak ingat aku. aku sedih. kamu jahat. kenapa kamu datang kalau kamu tak mahu tinggal. kamu jahat. tapi aku rindu kamu. kamu asyik buat aku menangis. kamu jahat.

kamu itu yoyo yang patutnya aku potong talinya dari dulu lagi.

2011-10-26T21:05:00.000-07:00

hari ni aku bangun dengan azam, untuk senyum sepanjang hari di pejabat. lalu aku senyum sepanjang pagi. Sewaktu membakar sampah, sewaktu memotong bunga kantan, sewaktu menebang pokok pisang di kebun dan membawa pisang pulang ke rumah, sewaktu membersihkan longkang penuh lumpur bendang di depan rumah, dan sepanjang perjalanan ke pejabat, aku tersenyum tanpa sebarang sebab kukuh. tak, azam bukan sebab cukup yang kukuh.

tiba masa menghadap skrin kerja, aku mulakan kerja dengan facebook. dan dari masa itu, aku dah tak mampu senyum lagi, sekurang-kurangnya utk hari ini. kenapa? aku terbaca komen kamu di wall seorang rakan. tidak, aku bukanlah cemburu dengan komen itu, tapi aku kecil hati. kamu punya masa untuk komen di wall dia, kamu punya masa untuk message dia di fb, tapi kamu tidak punya masa untuk tanyakan khabar aku pun. kamu tak punya masa untuk message aku walau 2 patah kata. tapi aku tidak terkejut. dulu kamu pernah perlakukan aku begini. kamu cakap kamu sibuk, kamu cakap kamu tiada masa, padahal kamu tipu aku, aku tahu kamu ada di situ, dengan orang lain. aku bukan tak sedar kamu berkali-kali sudah tipu aku. tapi aku biarkan saja.

dulu kamu kata kamu tak punya masa untuk aku, kamu perlu tumpukan perhatian pada kerja kamu. aku terima. selang 2-3 bulan, kamu sudah punya orang baru yang dapat menawan masa kamu yang mahal itu. aku terpana. kamu bukan tak punya masa untuk bersama, kamu hanya tidak mahu memberikan aku masa itu.

dengan payah aku lepas kan kamu sedikit demi sedikit, entah berapa kali aku menangis, berazam, menangis lagi, aku sudah hilang kira. selepas beberapa tahun, aku berjaya simpan kamu dibelakang minda aku. aku sudah jarang teringatkan kamu, mimpi kan kamu juga sudah jarang-jarang sekali.

tapi kamu tiba-tiba muncul kembali dalam hidup aku. kamu mahu aku join aktiviti piramid kamu. aku layan kamu baik-baik. aku tak mampu membenci kamu terus. kerana aku tak pernah benci kamu walaupun kamu selalu perlakukan aku macam kain buruk. selepas itu, kamu akan hilang dari hidup aku selama berbulan-bulan, dan bila muncul keperluan, kamu cari aku lagi.

kemudian, kamu ditimpa ujian besar dalam hidup kamu. hubungan kamu putus di tengah jalan. lalu kamu cari aku. aku gembira, kerana punya kawan berbual. tapi tak lama, kamu bertemu teman baru. lalu kamu berhenti hubungi aku. hati aku sakit lagi. aku menangis lagi, kerana rasa seperti aku hanya digunakan untuk kesekian kalinya. dan, kamu ditimpa masalah lagi. hubungan kamu yang baru itu putus. aku punya teman berbual kembali, kerana kamu sudah punya masa untuk diberikan kepada aku. aku senyum, tapi kelat, kerana makin jelas aku hanya lah tempat kamu jatuh, tempat yang kamu tahu sentiasa ada di situ setiap kali kamu perlu, biar pun berapa kali kamu berjalan pergi.

dan kini, untuk kesekian kalinya lagi, aku mendengar lagi kata-kata yang sama aku terima dari kamu 4 tahun dulu. kamu sibuk. kamu tak punya masa untuk sehelai kain buruk ini. sedangkan aku nampak kamu berhubungan dengan rakan aku. kamu punya masa untuk dia. kamu malu untuk biar orang lain tahu kamu kenal aku, kamu masih berhubungan dengan aku. kamu malu dengan aku. dan aku terbodoh lagi. kamu sudah punya orang lain untuk kamu berikan masa kamu. dan aku dibuang ketepi lagi. aku menangis lagi.

aku rasa letih dan bodoh. letih dibuang dan dikutip. bodoh asyik biarkan diri di buang dan dikutip. aku tahu aku bodoh. kamu pun tahu aku bodoh. sebab tu kamu take aku for granted. atau sebenarnya, pada kamu aku xpernah bernilai. aku je yang rasa aku mean something dalam hidup kamu. that must be the case then.

kenapa aku bodoh macam ni? mungkin sebab aku sayang kamu, tak tahu lah sebagai apa. mungkin. aku tak tahu. kalau aku tahu, senang aku sekolah kan diri aku supaya tak bodoh lagi.

maka tersebutlah al-kesah...sejarah...

2011-07-23T01:46:00.000-07:00

nama belog ini aideeya. asal usul nama belog ini datang dari perkataan idea. justeru, sebagai seorang pereka, idea membawa erti yang sangat besar dalam hidop seorang mardhiyah. makanya, di namakan belog ini sebagai aideeya, kerana mardhiyah adalah seorang pereka, jadi seorang pereka itu tidak patut melakukan apa-apa kerja secara standard, lalu idea menjadi aideeya. deeya itu juga boleh dikatakan nama pendek mardhiyah. hence, ai=me, deeya=mardhiyah
suratan atau kebetulan, nama belog ini punya persamaan juga dengan seorang insan yang pernah wujud dalam lipatan sejarah hidup mardhiyah. maka ramai yang sepandai-pandai tupai melompat, memikirkan nama belog ini adalah sempena nama insan sejarah tersebut, tanpa sebarang usul periksa. kesimpulan tersirat juga telah pandai-pandai disimpul, yang mardhiyah masih tidak dapat melupakan insan sejarah itu, lalu menamakan belog merapunya sempena nama insan sejarah...

WHAT THE ....? please la wei..... just because aku single, tak bermakna aku masih tak dapat lupa kot. not everything is about other people in my universe. sometimes, it's about me too. i choose to be where i am now. dont make me into a pathetic, scorned lover. not everything is like what it appear to be. people tend to have so many layer of them selves. me including. i dont need your sympathy. my actions are already calculated. dont assume.

N.U.M.B

2011-07-17T07:45:00.000-07:00

there are times in life that i feel so alone. now is one of those (not so rare) times.
i feel so alone, when there's people around me. i feel so much more alone, when im alone.
hope is such a cruel thing. you hope, and you got crushed. you dont hope, you'll feel lifeless. it's not good either way. feeling alone eventually brings numbness. thats exactly how i felt right now. alone, and numb. if only i didn't dare hope, i wouldn't feel so empty, alone and numb. which, will lead to self hate. and other people hate too. and eventually, i start to hate to world, and everything in it. i'll start becoming blind to all the beauty the world have to offer, and only see hate, and ugly things. by now, i already never smile. smile is a foreign thing. and difficult. and i almost never cry. emotions is something i feel as a waste of time. and then i turn cold. all doors are now shut. nobody, not even me, could enter.

berjaya kah?

2011-03-17T01:53:00.000-07:00

tidak berjayakah aku?
aku seorang pekerja kecil(bukan saiz badan) di sebuah syarikat rekabentuk dalaman kecil di bandar kecil. income sebulan menyamai gaji seorang pekerja kilang yg buat shift sekali sekala. tunggangan aku sebuah proton saga hitam yang sudah calar balar dek cakaran ayam kampung gila kuasa. tinggal aku bersama mak di rumah kampung yang tua usianya. hiburan seharian aku hanya dari TV, internet dan peluang sekali sekala jumpa kawan baik. shopping sakan di mall mewah dan bercuti2 malaysia hampir tiada dlm kamus harian ku. harta paling bernilai aku adalah keluarga, kawan baik dan si hitam penuh calar (itupun bukan fully harta aku. keta bank sebenarnya.huh). telefon xde wayar aku tak punya aplikasi canggih dengan touch-screen 2"x4" dgn kemudahan FB 24 jam on the go. kali terkakhir aku manjakan diri dgn produk kecantikan dan spa adalah....well, xpenah.
so, dikira berjayakah aku dalam hidop? apakah kayu ukuran kejayaan? perlukah aku guna kayu pembaris mm so that nilai kejayaan aku nampak besar? atau perlukah aku memperkecilkan diri menggunakan pengukur km untuk mengukur BERJAYAKAH AKU?

i dont mean to be rude....

2011-03-12T19:46:00.000-08:00

am i considered rude, if i say this,

"i dont mean to be rude, but u can take your rudeness and shove it up ur arse!!!"

yep, i was tempted to say those words, exactly, but, i dont want to be rude to rude people. coz that means im being rude to myself, as if i say the words, im considered rude, and that kinda make me fall into the rude people circle, hence, saying that to them is almost like being rude to myself. im not making any sense now, am i?

it's not much fun when u have to deal with people or u can call them customers ( i wont call them that coz, dude, u didnt even pay yet!) who, sorry to say, only giving u small tiny business, but act as if they're giving u 1 mil job! i know, i know, small project is still a project, i'll luv u anyway if u treat me with respect. small but act big? duh. u waste my FB time dude.

just sayin'.

a little bit heavy on the bz side...

2011-03-03T20:09:00.000-08:00

a bit tired.

this month has been quite hectic for me. starting with my bro+family of 4+1 coming back for the sissy in law to branak (i always have my hands full when my bros balik kg with the families, coz honestly, nieces are cute and luvable and all, but they do drain my energy with their constant fights and all...huhuhu), me going to bangi for the chinese new year break, and my sis coming back to bring back her new persona, me driving the pesona and my sis back to bangi, only to ride the next bus back home, the arrival of brand new most awaited baby nephew umar zulkarnain, doing the crazy trip by going to JB with ude+pon on thursday night and back in kedah at 4am saturday, taking mom deary to the hospital and temaning her for the next 5 days and 4 nights. FUH.

itu tak masuk kerja punya list. pending job list aku tak pernah kurang kot. abes 1, masuk 2, 1 dah ok, lagi 2 byk pulak songeh dia. bz bz bz bee....

ah ye, been a year since i post anything here, so, hi blog readers. i do plan to continue blogging, but that depends on the time and the will.. its the will that will determine the future of the blog. at times like this, i wish i got a laptop to use in front of the tv instead of a desktop...

guide to dream

2010-02-19T08:52:00.000-08:00

my 5 guidelines to my dream guy :

1) his head, the brain. no, not the rocket science kind of brain. a man who knows about things, and never lack things to talk about.

2) his arms. the kind of arms that makes u feel belonged.

3) his willingness to listen to my whining and b*tching,(i do this a lot), without trying to correct me or making me feel even smaller than i already do.

4) his attentiveness toward me. not the lovey doey type, just the kind who care enuff to like, hang around in the kitchen while i cook or clean. he dont have to really help with the cooking, just be there, not in the living room reading his papers and letting me work alone like a housemaid.

5) the love he have for me that makes him accept me for who i am, not who he hope i could become/he could change me into.

r.a.i.s.i.n.g.m.y.h.a.n.d.s.t.o.h.e.a.v.e.n.a.n.d.p.r.a.y

KARIPAP SARDIN HARAPAN (ini bukan resepi karipap)

2010-02-15T21:40:00.000-08:00

ada sedikit urusan di USM lagi hari rabu ari tu. tapi kali ni, pergi sana drive sensorang. ingatkan bosan drive pi Penang sorang2, rupanya best! memekak sepanjang jln sorang2, mesti driver lain yg nampak aku pk aku gila...

boleh dikatakan that's the 1st time aku betul2 drive dlm USM. dulu2, naik moto jer. kemana pun, atas menda tayar 2 tu jer la. skarang, menda tayar 2 tu pun dah xde, kena jual. xde lesen punya pasal... sapa nk kasi pakai lesen L selama2 nya kan.

best jugak lepak USM sorang2 ari tu. dari postgrad skol, pegi HBP, pusing 1 HBP carik lecturer ID. semua pun xde! nasib baik le jumpa studio ID second year, dpt no fon Dr Sharmila. lepas set appointment, pegi lepak di Harapan. pegi tgk2 tempt main2 and bersosial dolu2, BILIK GERAKAN! then, beli air tehoais dari kedai air yg masih tak tukar tokeh, (tp mamu dah xjaga counter air dah), and beli my fav kuih of all, KARIPAP SARDIN CAFE HARAPAN!! gile rindu karipap sardin dari gerai kuih yang dijual oleh abg kuih yg tak pernah senyum tu. lama tu aku merindu, akhirnya terlerai juga rindu aku kepada karipap sardin and tehoais cafe Harapan. sambil2 tgu emon datang ambil nk pegi buat menda yg kitorg slalu buat tanpa fail, sambil2 minom tehoais. (terliur lagi). syok gak lepak sambil usha budak2 Harapan zaman skarang. apsal ntah, aku tgk mcm baik2 jer dorg, yg pompuan suma pun pakai baju long sleeve jer. xde ker yg pakai short sleeve dgn suar baggy and sneakers mcm aku dulu??? (outdated sgt kah style aku itu?) agak sedih sebab aku terasa mcm half expecting ian or yanty or dingz or D or budak2 lain yg aku kenal melangkah masuk ke cafe tu.. tp harapan tinggal harapan... hehehe.. then emon sampai, menuju la kami ke tempat favorite kami, shopping mall!! (mmg mcm teenagers lak pi mall. padahal last2 makan KFC jer, mcm la depan USM tu xde KFC. kita mmg bengong la emon.)

memang sgt best lah lepak USM ari tu. mesti lg best kalau ada kawan2 yg sama2 buat gila masa study dulu. hmmphh!!!

yesterday

2010-02-15T21:31:00.000-08:00

suddenly, i miss you. give my yesterdays back. i want my yesterdays back. please.

memories of midnights and sea

2009-12-10T06:40:00.000-08:00

went down the memory lane today.
yeap, pegi tanah tempat aku kenal dunia, USM.
it's true when people said, university doesn't only teach you bout academic stuffs, it also teach u about live, love and lies.
the moment kereta yunie masuk jambatan pulau pinang, the moment aku nampak laut yg dulu jadi tempat aku mengadu (ewah) dan termenung panjang bila ada masalah, kenangan pahit manis dekat USM datang balik. kenangan yang pahit is what makes the kenangan manis, manis, (paham ker?) berjalan di jalan yang dahulunya jadi tempat aku menapak saban hari, menjamu mata dengan pemandangan indah USM yang tak pernah membosankan aku, menjejak kembali langkah-langkah yang memberi aku pengajaran hidup. (hampir sebak disitu tapi control sebab yunie ada kat tepi) huh. reminds me of how much i love being in USM. tanah tempat aku mengenal (cinta?), dunia, kawan-kawan, dan hidup. i miss being there! (tanda aku miss sesuatu yang lain juga? yang rambut afronya membuatkan aku diejek kawan-kawan studio? ahahhaha. korang gelakkan afro itu tapi aku suka....) kenangan-kenangan yang datang tadi mengingatkan aku betapa aku pernah jadi bodoh, tapi bodoh yang terasa indah (pada masa itu). pada masa yang sama mengingatkan aku yang perasaan indah yang sementara itu juga lah yang telah mengubah hidup aku dan diri aku... how i changed from the girl penuh dengan angan-angan dan impian serta semangat yang positif dan membara, kepada manusia (looser?) who i am today. ironic.
pahit, manis, 3 tahun di USM ada lah antara 3 tahun terbaik dalam hidup aku. bersyukur diberi peluang mengenali watak-watak penting dalam hidup aku. trina mayang dunggau, kawan-kawan studio, lecturers, di ...

i'm still missing the 3 years, and when things got bad, i'll close my eyes and dream of those years. and then i'll realise, i have to brave it like i used to brave the 3 years in USM....

post bali

2009-11-12T06:52:00.000-08:00

bali is overrated. wonderful if u come from places with snow. unimpressed.

bali

2009-10-26T08:01:00.000-07:00

jalan-jalan di bali coming soon.
excited.

2009-10-11T08:18:00.000-07:00

i'm a 25 years old.
i have no job, with things to pay.
i have no one i can really talk to.
my future seems bleak.
im tired with people telling me things i already know.
im tired trying to meet expectation.
i can only cry in front of my monitor.
i can only whine and cry in front of my monitor.
im very negative.
i talk to only 2 persons everyday.
im always considering ....... myself.
yes, im grateful for the things i have.
no, i feel empty all the time.
if thinking that grass is always greener on the other side is a sin, then im a big sinner.
im full of flaws.
im torn between myself and that 1 important.
there are times i feel like vanishing into thin air.
im mad at myself for being such a whiner. no. i hate myself for that.
and i hate myself for feeling torn between myself and someone so important.
i hate myself most of my waking time.
i hate myself for being negative.
i hate myself for being me.
sometimes i feel like i dont really have much reason to continue...

anggur

2009-10-06T23:14:00.000-07:00

it's official...
aku seorang penganggur.
ada sapa2 nak bagi aku kerja?

hari raya di kampung halaman

2009-10-03T22:08:00.000-07:00

hari raya yg baru lepas ni, tak terasa macam raya pun....
sebab beraya di kampung mak kt Jawi, sebarang perai...
sangat tak festive....
lebih kepada balik bercuti je...

dengan aktiviti yang sangat tidak festival...

pegi beli makanan kucing dengan ude n emon...(dengan berpakaian ala2 nak pegi beraya..)

lepak umah banosh...(membuat bising di rumah banosh tanpa segan silu macam biasa..)

lepak umah banosh lagi... (asik2 umah banosh...)

melawat tempat bersejarah...

beli ikan yang baru tiba di pelantar nelayan...(kak ipar yg tak bleh dok diam bila nampak ikan segar..)

makan nasi panas dengan gulai ikan yang baru naik dari bot....

makan petang ramai2 dengan sajian serawa pisang nangka...

jadi buruh binaan buat blok simen utk lantai taman...

hari raya yang sangat istimewa dan bermakna....

hari raya dan tabby si kucing gemuk (yg sekarang dah tak gemuk)

2009-10-03T20:23:00.000-07:00

"SELAMAT HARI RAYA"

kucing aku sudah sembuh dari demam selama seminggu. dia demam lepas balik dari kampung masa hari raya hari tu. seminggu dia makan sikit je, asik termenung kosong (bak kata omputih staring into space), tak nak main, tak nak lari-lari sepahkan rumah (yg mana aku n kakak agak bahagia sebab tak payah kemas ruang tamu 2 kali sehari macam masa dia sihat), tak nak mengiau, tak de panjat-panjat perabot, asik tido seharian dalam selimut dan badan jadi kurus kering macam kucing takde tuan. dua kali kitorg paksa dia makan ubat. sekali, bancuh panadol soluble setengah biji, paksa dia minum. kali kedua, bancuh ubat dehydration sebab takot dia xcukup air, yang kali ni guna shringe untuk senangkan kerja paksa dia makan ubat. lepas tu, tunggu je dengan harapan dia sihat. (malas nak pegi vet punya pasal). nasib baik le, pagi ni, aku bangun, dia tengah sibuk sepahkan teddy bear McDonald kesayangan dia yg aku letak atas rak TV (yg dah 3 hari aku letak tapi dia tak sentuh pun sebab demam agaknya, tak larat nak lompat). then asik sibuk kacau aku time aku sibuk buat cekodok pisang awak kata dapor. sambil kejap-kejap cakar segala polistrin yg ada dalam dapor tu. soheh, kucing kitorg dah sihat. TABBY IS BACK!!

kenapa dia demam?? ada 2-3 teori:

1. dia rindukan mak kat kampung sebab sepanjang balik kampung selama seminggu lebih, tiap malam dia tidur tepi mak. kalau angkat dia letak tepi aku pun, mesti dia bangun pegi tepi mak balik ( tak mengenang budi langsung kucing aku. sapa bagi dia makan tiap hari??)

2. dia rindukan bermain-main di kawasan rumah mak di kampung yg luas dan penuh cabaran. susah sgt nak nampak muka dia time siang masa kat kampung.

3. dia rindukan girlfren dia (yang nampak sangat lagi tua dari dia) yang dia berkenalan kat kampung. dah la dia asik nak kna pukul dgn boipren kucing tu. (akibat kaco awek org.)

4. dia rindu kena buli dengan anak sedara aku fasihah huda (yang hari pertama nampak tabby menjerit2 ketakutan, tapi lagi 3-4 hari sebelum balik ke putrajaya mesti tarik ekor tabby bila ada kesempatan or bila mak dia tak tengok).

5. dia trauma dan mengalami dehidrasi akibat kitorg tertinggal dia dalam kereta tertutup pukul 12tghari terpacak masa on the balik ke bangi time kitorang berenti makan di tanjung malim. sumpah lupa langsung ada makhluk lain dalam keta. punyala lapar and sakit kepala (aku pun tgh demam selsema, tambah drive dalam panas lagi), dgn selamba je tinggalkan dia dlm carrier dia dlm keta. bila sedar2, dia dah basah lecun and air liur berbuih2 (mekanisma menyejukkan diri menggunakan air liur). kelam kabut bawa dia masuk rumah abang kt tg malim, sambil mintak maaf kat dia.

agak2, sebab apa dia demam sampai seminggu eh??(tabby demam tido dalam selimut)

break

2009-09-08T09:40:00.000-07:00

"it is easier to hate and break, than to love and make up..."

just something that cross my mind... listening to oneRepublic at the very moment...

i know my sister love me when...

2009-07-22T06:57:00.000-07:00

my sister love me.
much.
how do i know?
she came to keep me company and help me clean the site after she got back from work. she didn't even go home and change her baju kurung that she wear to work. she even stop at McD to buy me and my colleague food just becoz i said im hungry and thirsty. when she got there at the site, at 8p.m, she makes us eat and even help me clean the glass walls, in her blue baju kurung and high heels, up till 10.30pm... yeah, she does look funny, cleaning the glass walls with news paper in hand and high heels, but her gesture does touch my heart. it proves something.

SOMEONE DO LOVE ME THAT MUCH. (or is it "does love me"?)

love is not the money one spend for your birthday present,
love is not the party you organize or pay for at a fancy restaurant,
love is not by wearing the same themed baju kurung/raya for hari raya.
love is when my sister help me clean the site together with some indonesians workers up untill late at night...

i feel love... LOVE YOU KAK.... hehehehe

love,
ur sister who always let you pay everything.

problem, anyone?

2009-07-04T00:22:00.000-07:00

heh.. dah berhabuk eh tempat neh.. i was bz pretending to be bz for the last month.. running here and there. it seems like problems are popping out now more than ever as the work are coming towards the end. water flooding in the waiting lounge (nearly ruin all the carpets, phew!), aircond water leaking in the boardroom and on the meeting table, door handle broken.. and the list seems to grow.. life and work wouldn't be as intresting as it is if it weren't for all these wonderful problems, aite?

talking about problems, i've been kinda annoyed with some people i won't state their name here. i have some friends, if that's what u called them anyway. the kind who only remembers that your a friend only when they are facing problems. when they are happy and having a good time, you are not in the list. but when there's problem, you are the place for them to whine, and bitch and ask for opinions. yes dear, i'm flattered that you seek me for advice and consolation, but no, im not a problem dumping box. you don't even remember i even exist when your happy and on cloud nine, why should i even care whether your job is killing you or your pc won't install that stupid software..

p/s : no, ude, put, yunie, banosh, emon, abba and all my best frens since the yester years... you are not this person i'm talking about... you guys don't annoy me that way.. hehe... anyway, miss you guys la, except for ude sbb baru semlm je aku lepak dengan dia.. hehehe.. sorry ude.. ahahhha... ude buat bangi macam alor setar je..seminggu dua kali mai sini.. ada gak org nak lepak dengan aku.. put, i guess ang dah sampai la kan, tapi malas nak kaco2 ang lagi, nanti dah settled in baik punya, contact us ok. yunie, bz with work eh? aku yg nak balik kedah, tapi ang yg sampai dulu. banosh, ang bukan nk ajak aku keluar time xde kerja. awan, huhuhuh...feel so bad sbb xdapat balik alor setar ari tu..nanti cuti sekolah panjang sket kita meet up ok. bleh kenalkan orang rumah ang kat kitorang. emon, haih... emon.. pon..herm.. hani, besar mana dah perut anda? boleh letak pinggan belom?? (hani mana baca blog ni).. herm, miss the good old days.

IDIOTS

2009-05-18T23:14:00.000-07:00

i am in a tremendous pressure. if being in pressure can make me loose weight, i'll be as thin as twiggy...

TENSIONNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant work like this... feel like lari balik rumah, tgk tv, sambil tulis surat berenti kerja kt boz. hate everybody here. dammit..

shopping spree!!

2009-05-09T09:34:00.000-07:00

due to many, many miss communication, miss interpretation, miss supervision and a big lack of design taste (by some other person than me, of course, hehe), the project im in charge at the moment got drag for another month. cuti seminggu aku dah kena beku, flight ticket aku balik kedah for sure akan burn, so, im in a bit of a pressure for the past 2 weeks. penyelesaian? me n my sis go for impulse buying and shopping. i end up buying these :

long sleeved dark grey t-shirt, RM12.50 :D

grey top, no idea where shud i wear it to, like i said, impulse buying. RM20

loop earing, RM10 for 4 pairs :D (the pink 1 is my fav)

sony ericson T303 slide camera phone, RM300 (not as fancy as others', but i luv it)

the best buy of the month iss....my black ankle bootie!! which cost me only RM28.15!!! after 70% off. dah lama dah aku nk sangat ankle bootie, last2 dapat jugak yg aku mampu...wahhhhhh... (jgn keliru, kasut aku yg belah kiri aje, yg belah kanan tu kasut Clark kak aku, yg harga nya 10 kali ganda harga kasut aku...huhuhuh...)

ok, dah abes shopping, pressure kerja pun kurang sebab duit dah abes, lepas ni duduk diam2 kat umah, sampai gaji masuk pulak...hhuhuhuh...

icon

2009-04-26T05:25:00.000-07:00

i was googling the net earlier, mula-mula nak cari asal usul reality tv, but then the search led to chelsea girls by andy warho l, then me led to this celebrity here, Edie Sedgwick... well, bukan dekat malaysia la at least, dekat the western worlds. apperently dia some sort of style icon zaman 60-an dulu, lebeh kurang Paris Hilton skarang la.. i kinda like her style, in fashion sense la, tp xdpt nk ikot coz aku sangat malu part-part nk bergaya ni..haih..
anyway, this lady led a very fast life, mati masa umor 28. semua benda dia buat dlm masa berapa tahun, from drugs to achohol, which led to her death at the age of 28. but she's still quite a big lifestyle icon in the west till now.. i guess she's living her life to the fullest kot..
which make me wonder la kan, is it living life to the fullest when ur not even aware of what happening in ur life if ur under the influence in most of ur waking time..
herm.. here's some of her 'arty' images.. maybe tak seglemer marilyn monroe, but not so bad either..

smart tol gambar ni..

aku ada gambar posing cam ni ngan studio mates kt USM dulu..

love her earrings. aku penah nampak anting2 cenggini dalam gambar tok aku zaman dia muda2, bila aku tanya dia, dia sendri dh tak ingt mana pegi.. haih.. rugi2..

an era of pop culture..

gambar yg dh di edit. luv the color play here.. wish i have this kind of talent.. hhuhu..

disowned

2009-04-21T07:07:00.000-07:00

if i happen to go mad/cuckoo/crazy 1 of these days, blame it on my stupid, selfish of a little brother. im disowning him. i have no younger brother. im the last child. there's only 4 of us, the mohameds. ur disowned mohd syafiq!!

wallpaper tag

2009-04-18T06:41:00.000-07:00

ude tag aku. dah lama aku xwat tag2 dia, so, wat jela, sambil2 main mafia wars...

Anda perlu "printscreen" wallpaper anda yang sedang guna sekarang, jangan tipu, kerana aktiviti menipu kurang digemari.
Beri tahu mengapa anda suka "wallpaper" anda itu.
Tag orang.
Itu sahaja.

hahahaa...pulun kan... aku tgh surf net guna lappy lama boz aku..dia bagi aku guna sebab dia dh ada yg baru lagi canggih, so abes madu sepah ni dapatla kat aku. disebabkan aku ni pekerja contoh, lepas mengemas semua folder2 dia yg bersepah kt desktop, aku pun letak la wallpaper dgn logo company...
kenapa aku suka??? aku kna suka ke? yela2, aku suka sbb nampak professional, simple n kemas, berbanding wallpaper yg asal boz aku letak... gambar pemandangan laut masa dia pegi bercandat.. i know, im supposed to like laut, tapi tak cun laa..... sowi boz, i know u like that wallpaper so much, tp semak laaa... hehehe...

aku nak tag :
-semua org yang baca blog ni.. heeeee

kereta aku comot.

2009-04-17T07:24:00.000-07:00

keta aku tersangatlah comot.
sampai ramai betul yang menegur.
mula2, si azwar tegur, macam biasalah, aku yg ego ni, banyak je jawabnya, "aku mmg saja je xnak basuh, xyah sayang2 sgt keta ni.."

then, kakak aku bising.
aku masih lagi xbasuh keta aku, sebab aku sangat malas nak pegi cari carwash. huh..
kadang-kadang, aku bukan malas, aku xtao mana nk cari carwash...

then, pagi tadi, pakcik gad kat bawah rumah ni tegur masa aku nk pegi site...
"adik, basuhla kereta tu...."
mesti pakcik gad tu pk,
"punyala pemalas budak ni...keta sama comot dengan tuannya... keta hitam dh jadi kelabu...."
aduh... malu2... nampak sangat la pemalasnya... tp.... aaahhh... biar jela comot... nanti2 la basuh...

then, boz aku lak tegur...
"mard, basuh la keta tu....cuba buka hood keta tu, ntah2 ada ular berlingkar.."

aduh....
xleh jadi neh... sampai boz dh tegur... mentang2 la bimmer 7 series dia berkilat sentiasa...
so aku dh berazam, esok jugak aku hantar pi basuh....
kawan2, bagila aku dorongan yg aku perlukan utk basuh kereta aku yg dh bertukar jadi kelabu tu..

rapper in diapper

2009-03-25T09:01:00.000-07:00

ini gambar anak sedara aku... bukan gambar latest la.. tp mcm cute lak... so aku post kat sini. dia memang pantang nampak apa2 gadget.. tambah2 yang aku guna..

CUTE kan??!!! luv the gurls loads!!!

check this out!! anak sedara aku dh bertukar menjadi zirafah!!!

yang sorang ni nakal betul.. dia berlari dlm changing room dekat nichii, siap masuk dlm bilik yg ada sorang minah ni tgh nk try baju (changing room dia xde pintu, ada curtain jer, ms dorg decide nk pakai curtain, dorang x terpikir ada budak nk berlari masuk dlm bilik tu).. aku yg jadi tukang kejar ni malu gileeee.... huhuh... sian minah yg tgh tukar baju tu... ahahhaha...

aku yang masih belum dapat gaji sbb check masih x clear..

2009-03-25T05:00:00.001-07:00

dah sebulan lebeh dah aku kna jaga site, and pada masa yg sama buat kerja macam biasa. most of the days mmg keletihan la, campur kna habuk simen la, apa la, mmg serabut..hehhe..nasib baik la rambut dh pendek...letih sgt kadang2 nk bukak pc pun dh xlarat.

aku dh di ishtihar muflis dlm 10 hari ni, gaji aku lambt masuk. dhla dpt check 19hb baru dpt, then, weekend plak, sampai hari ni la, aku xde duit langsung. haih, terpaksa buat muka kesian kat kak aku, pinjam duit dia je... sedih aku....sampai topup kredit fon pun guna belas ihsan dia...menyedihkan dak kawan2... tu yg aku bengang je ngan boz aku tu... kerja nk cepat je, gaji aku bkn nk cepat2 kan... paham2 je la check, lepas 3 hari baru clear... lepas 10 hari gaji aku patut kluar, baru aku dpt gaji... ada ka patut...

kang aku berenti kerja baru dia tao... pandai2 la dia carik designer baru kan...yg sanggup hidop ngan gaji kecik tu...aku tgk iklan kerja lecturer aku letak utk budak2 ID yg baru grad, gaji rm1800 ++ tu.. siap ada plus plus tu... hampeh tol.. bak kata put, looser sungguh.. herm...

patot kah aku berenti kerja????
ntah2 kerja baru nanti lagi teruk condition, xde peluang blajar apa2 langsung...
tp letih la gaji ciput... mcm xberbaloi je kerja... asik pokai je...
haih....

hair do

2009-03-14T08:41:00.000-07:00

yeah...

aku dh potong rambut ku yg dh mula panjang menguarai ni... lepas lunch, kak aku dok bising2 dia dh rimas ngan rambut dia, so pegila kt salon baru bukak depan umah tu... so she got a bob cut... and aku decided to get a very diff looks from what i used to have.... ala2 korea nye look tp xjadi..ahahhaha.... boyfren si trina ckp aku hensem dgn rambut baru aku..alahai... dats not the impact i hope to have la kan... hensem!!! aku bkn nk ngorat awek... huhuuhu...

(kak aku nye BOB cut in the making..)

(new look aku yg mcm tomboy...huhuh)

oh yeah, ari tu besday aku... biasa je pun... pi kerja, balik kerja... i made a besday wish dis year, tp unfortunately wish tu susah nk fulfill... "what i want for my 25th besday is a .........." hahahaahha... the only bday present i got is from dis person.. a black glow in the dark t shirt with a ganas pic of an ikan on the front..cool...hehehe..

(comel dak? tp baju ni oversized la...pakai di umah je lah..thanx dear!!)

revenge is sweet

2009-02-15T00:24:00.000-08:00

tiba-tiba aku terfikir nak start 1 tag baru...

korg yg kena tag ni, sambung je ayat yg aku bagi...ala, macam karangan jenis start dgn ayat yg dah di bagi tu....ikot la, nk buat panjang berjela (like 10 words ke, ala2 slogan) ataupun 1000 words ke, ala2 berita muka depan).

the sweetest revenge one could ever have on an ex would be .....
living hapily and hooking up with a guy whom he knows, probably his own relatives or maybe siblings, who happens to have more the he does. for example, sum1 who makes more money, have better looks/physique, drives better car, more matture, more charming, have more power, etc... imagine being able to show off infront of him during family gatherings and stuffs like that. how small will he feel.. ah, the revenge would be oh so sweeeeet that itwould probably kill you...
hahahaha..... pardon my vulgarness my friends... im in a bit of pressure with mr idea.. he kinda out of town and im kinda need him desprately.. how inconsiderate of him to be away in this time when i really need him the most. oh, dear mr idea.. i need u, and i miss u... (not that u're ever mine to start with...)

so,

i'm tagging,
-put
-ude
-aber
- whoever yg happened to baca the post...come on, for fun sake...hehehe...

p/s : lepas korg buat benda ni, korg tag la sapa2 tgk... im interested in seeing, who got the most creative idea, or maybe the shrewdest/twisted mind..ahhahaa....

let's enjoy a cuppa sweet revenge!!

the em.

2009-02-14T23:58:00.000-08:00

well, here's sumthing to do... just to please the "habuk" ladies..
yes put, "habuk" is oh so kewl...

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag 10 people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

Have fun!

1. What is your name? Mardhiyah Mohamed
2. A four letter word: miss
3. A boy's name: mark
4. A girl's name: marsya
5. An occupation: mourner
6. A color: maroon
7. Something you wear: magic by lancome
8. A food: muffin!! nyum2.
9. Something found in the bathroom: mop
10. A place: my room
11. A reason for being late: missed the bus!!
12. Something you shout: mind ur own business!!
13. A movie title: M (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/M_(1931_film)
14. Something you drink: milk shake
15. A musical group: my chemical romance/muse
16. A street name: maharajalela street
17.. A type of car: mercedes babyy...yeah..
18. A song title: maaf
19. A verb: mock

not that hard.. ahaha....

p/s: er guys, hate to be a joy killer, but, bukan ke verb tu mcm action word? ke aku yg salah paham, like always....?

tagged

2009-01-18T08:23:00.000-08:00

(awarded by put nad.... blogstar huh...big joke...)

7 perkara penting(xde la penting mana pun...xmasuk periksa pun) untuk dikongsi:

nama penuh dlm ic/ nickname: mardhiyah mohamed
bezday:240284
alamat tempat stay skarang: A-6-10, apt rajawali, seksyen 9, bandar baru bangi, slngor
jenis hpone skarang : norkiah
TUGAS skarang: tukang tenung computer/surirumah sepanjang masa
status: crushin'
watak anime @ kartun yg disukai: garfield

next penerima awardoo:
1. abe
ntah2 ude dh tag..xkisah la...layannnnn....

opss

2009-01-15T19:34:00.000-08:00

oppssss......

napa ntah video decode tu wide screen??? kan dah makan space.. hahahaa...xkisahlah, nk jugak kongsi lagu ni dgn sapa2... yg lagu second tu full moon-black ghost.. a bit creepy, terbayang red indians dancing around fire at night, bila dgr lagu ni....or maybe werewolves...ahahhaa...what a fantasy..

stuck

2009-01-15T18:58:00.000-08:00

status : blom mandi
status kerja : belom siap. banyak yang nk kena siapkan!
status mood : malas gila nk buat kerja, tapi kena siapkan jugak. malas nk layan org2 NSF. i hate detailings work!!!!
status emosi : high... in estacy.. due to underdose of twilight saga. i want the books NOW!!!!
status lagu dlm playlist winamp : dark, moody, linkin park, paramore, MCR, twilight's OST...

argh....

hate detailings... dah berhari-hari2 bertangguh kerja detailings ni. tapi apa nk buat, it needs to be done. seriously dah boring dgn project ni. xpenahnya siap. dh nearly 1 and a half year dah. MUAK!! with the help of the current playlist, loud, angry, dark songs, i managed to get in the mood to work. just get it done with. tgl sket lagi, sikiiiiiiiitttttt lagi....haih....

after tgk twilight hari tu, i was kinda stuck with the it. lepas a bit of googling, and reading the 1st chapter of all the books, i'm officially now addicted to the twilight, and itchy to have the twilight books. 4 of them. malangnya buku2 tu xde di MPH Alamanda. alahai. kt midvalley je ada.

while googling pasal twilight, jumpa official website penulis twlight, stephenie meyer. dia listkan lagu-lagu yg characters tu dgr, and aku cari lagu2 tu, and now im stuck, with this particular song, Decode by Paramore. sgt best! definitely my kind of song. hehehe...video clip dia pun layan. and 1 lagi lagu dlm OST twilight, pun sgt best. x caya, aku letakkan skali video dia kt sini... ( ntah jadi ntah tak...huhuhuh....)

welcome 2009, and all the new stuffs it brings..

2009-01-03T23:00:00.000-08:00

dis week is a week full of firsts...

1. me and my sis finally made it to IKEA!! haha... there's nothing worth of shouting out by berjaya sampai sana, tp yg penting, berjaya memaksa diri keluar dari bandar baru bangi and putrajaya's comfort zone! hahaa... i have to admit it, i dont like going out of my comfort zone much... but we manage to force ourselves, so, dah bertambah lah places in KL dat we know how to go to..hehe...dat GPS book we bought is definitely worth every cent.

2. buat pertama kalinya, aku telah berjaya me'render' 3ds max image ku menggunakan vray!! selepas beberapa hari membaca/menonton tutorials, dapat jugak aku render image yg agak cun berbanding 3d aku dulu. improvement!! dah lama dh dok berniat nk blajar guna vray ni, tapi me being me, niat tinggal niat je la.. bukan apa,cari installer xdapat2. 1 fine day, aku terpk nk blajar guna torrent, so dapatla aku sebijik fail installer vray, and my dear abg mie tlg installkan (takot nk try install sendri...mcm susah semacam je.. ), then the rest is history... hehehe...

3. dari bulan 11 ari tu, dok pk nk try buat cupcakes, tapi xpenah nya sempat. bila ada masa sket, im lack tools and ingredients. i promised ude nk buatkan 1 bekas untuk majlis tunang dia raya cina nanti, so, masa dh makin suntuk, apalagi, paksa la jugak diri pegi kedai untuk beli barang2 utk buat cupcakes. spend around rm60 for the stuffs (walopon bulan ini tersgt lah sengkek..mana pegi duit, aku pun xtao), then, sampai je rumah, tros buat. and the result....a DISASTER!! TRAGEDY!! hahaaa... cake dlm cup tu melimpah ruah atas tray, then bila dh masak dia sink la pulak. so much for my angan2 kek tu jadik comel je... hehe... mcm ni lah kalau blajar sendri tanpa tok guru. pagi ni, berbekalkan semangat baru, try buat frosting (icing dia la) plak... alhamdulillah...mcm jadi je... maka berhias la cuppies ku yg sinking (tp rasa dia sodap tu)... herm, nk buat cuppies ni mcm best, tp nk makannya, aku xbrapa suka.. manis gila!!

semangat aku hampir2 sinking macam cupcake aku jugak...

nasib baikla frosting buttercream ni mcm agak menjadi..walaupun xde color...test baru..

moral of the story : jangan malas mencuba.... (boleh dijadikan azam tahun baru aku neh..hehe)

crash boom bang

2008-12-18T19:19:00.000-08:00

tersebut lah al kisah...

seorang perempuan yang sangat la clumsy ceritanya....

pada satu hari nan indah, di sebuah apartment di luar kota, burung-burung berkicau merdu, angin bertiup sepoi2 bahasa, matahari menyinari alam dan dengung2 kereta di lebuhraya memeriahkan lagi suasana... si perempuan yang baru selesai mendengar arahan demi arahan dari org yang membayar gajinya, termangu di depan mesin canggihnya. oleh kerana hari makin merangkak ke tengahari, perempuan itu berkeputusan untuk mandi di kamar mandi biru yang sempit. di capainya shampoo yang baru di beli di carrefour pada hari sebelumnya. adapun, hendak di jadikan cerita, shampoo itu terletak di atas color box bersama2 botol2 perfume milik perempuan ini. dengan niat yang baik, perempuan ini mula menyusun semula botol2 kaca itu. tapi, seperti yang dinyatakan di awal cerita, perempuan ini clumsy org nya. maka, tangannya yang clumsy itu telah mengenai sebotol Miracle Forever by Lancome, dan,

"CRASH!!!!"

Miracle Forever by Lancome itu jatuh ke lantai jubin, dan terpisah lah bahagian2 yang dahulunya 1. cecair dengan bau yang menusuk hidung mula melebar di atas lantai, menandakan berakhirnya riwayat sebotol perfume Miracle Forever by Lancome.....

HUUUWAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!! ABES PERFUME AKU!!!!

p/s: on the positive side of the story, bilik aku akan wangi untuk seminggu dan lebih, dengan bau wangian Miracle Forever by Lancome..Miracle Forever -R.I.P

kebaikan bekerja dari rumah

2008-12-15T18:46:00.000-08:00

tak ramai orang yang bekerja dari rumah macam aku. oleh itu ramai yang xsedar kebaikan kerja kat umah ni.. oleh itu aku nk berkongsi la kenikmatan/kebaikan bekerja dari rumah ni dgn sapa2 yang rasa nk baca....

10 kebaikan bekerja dari rumah:

tak payah mandi masa bangun pagi, boleh teros masuk opis dgn baju tido dan gigi yg tak bergosok.
jimat duit makan sebab xde opismate yang nk ajak teman makan pagi or lunch. kalau kerja dekat opis, walaupun tak rasa lapar, tapi bila member ajak, mesti ikot gak, last2 (kalau jenis kurang pegangan diet mcm aku ni) mesti terpengaruh untuk makan sekali....
menjimatkan masa. banyak masa boleh dijimatkan kalau kerja dari rumah. jimat masa nk gosok baju yang nk di pakai ke pejabat. kalau kerja kt rumah, nak kerja dalam baju tidor yg dah 3 hari x basuh pun sapa tao.. sendri la tanggung bau asyem... jimat masa perjalanan pi pejabat...tak sampai seminit dh sampai depan pc sendiri... kalau pi pejabat, mao makan 30 menet, tu tak campor jam lagi...
boleh tidor kalau tiba-tiba rasa malas nk buat kerja tanpa risiko kena smash dgn boz ataupun dipecat dgn notis 24 jam. sapa nk bagi tidor kat opis walaopon xde kerja???
menjimatkan air. sebab? tak perlu mandi 2-3 kali sehari. bangun pagi, tros masuk 'opis' kt umah, buat kerja sampai tghari, baru mandi.... ptg xyah la mandi dah..ala.., bukan pegi mana pun... peluh pun tidak.. so maknanya mandi sehari sekali je.. kan jimat air tu..
boleh lari dari boz kalau kerja tak siap or bila tersilap buat kerja. ala, boz tu pun malas nk kejar sampai ke rumah...
boleh amik cuti sesuka hati time kerja tak banyak... boz bukan tao pun.. janji kerja siap..
boleh layan facebook/frenster/myspace/ym sepanjang hari tanpa rasa segan silu.
tak payah beli baju banyak2. pakai je baju yg slalu pakai kt rumah.. xyah pening kepala nk beli baju baru utk pegi opis... jimat duit beli baju, and jimat duit beli make-up lagi... kalau nk make-up pun boleh, untuk rasa lebih cantik walopon tak mandi...
selamat dari sexual harassment yang mungkin berlaku di opish...

pekerja contoh

2008-12-04T21:46:00.000-08:00

aku tak puas hati.

bengang pun ada.

ingatkan boleh la bercuti seminggu tanpa perlu memikirkan hal kerja. siap bayangkan aktiviti2 yg boleh dilakukan di rumah lagi. bakar sampah, mesin rumput, lepak2 n sembang, teman ude pi cari kain, berjemur di tepian pantai....eh..part pantai tu tipu la kan....

skali,

aku kna bawa balik kerja ke kg. kna siapkan plan M n E, ceiling+lighting plan, toilet nye renovation plan. nasib baik kt kg ada internet, ada pc, klu tak, tak pasal aku kna cut short aku punya cuti...so,

aku tak puas hati.

tp, nk marah sapa pun xleh. nk marah boz, masa dia luluskan cuti tu, xde kerja urgent. skali lepas meeting kt KLIA Holdings td, ada menda nk kena submit pulak. aduhai, xde masa lain ke. dorg xpela kg dekat2 je. org kg jauh macam aku ni, skali2 nk balik, mesti nk bagi berbaloi kan... haih....

so, jadila aku seorg pekerja contoh sepanjang cuti nanti. terpaksa bekerja di kg, dan dgn susahnya menahan godaan utk turun keluar rumah utk membakar sampah dan memesin rumput sambil melepak2 bersama mak dan kakak...

gambar trip ke jakarta

2008-11-29T23:37:00.000-08:00

aku baru je uploadkan gambar2 masa trip ke jakarta bulan lepas... nk uploadkan dekat sini, rasa mcm lembab semacam je, so kalau rasa nk tgk gambar2 kt jakarta yg xberapa byk, jenguk2 la friendster profile aku... ada lagi yg belum upload..ntahla kenapa malas betol nk upload gambar..haih....

aku ada ckp haritu nk citer aktiviti aku kt sana, tp masih belom berkesempatan... tp apa yg boleh diconcludekan dari trip tu, well, the trip was an eye opener.. a feast for amateur designer like me. mcm yg dah diketahui, org indonesia ni banyak kesenian dan adat budaya dorg yg masih lg nampak sampai sekarang. design rumah2 and mall mewah dorg, memang kagum arh.. rumah2 besar di area jakarta selatan aku sempat pergi pusing2 ari tu, mmg best2 semua. xde pun what we call the typical design, mcm rumah2 banglo kt malaysia ni. diorg pandai mainkan texture material, shape, and color, utk hasilkan design yg.... nampak modern, tp masih 'speaks' the native tounge. mungkin kelebihan dorg dr segi material.. material yg natural2 macam batu2 granite, lava rock, lime stone and mcm2 stone lg lah, mmg murah and bersepah2 kt sana. even kedai tepi jalan pun jual pasu2 pokok yg designnya simple n modern. kalau kt cni, pasu mcm tu maybe hanya boleh dpt dekat kedai landscape mewah mcm terra garden tu.. harganya..fuh, jgn tanya lah... sbb aku pun xtao....

utk org2 yg plan nk pi jakarta nanti, espcially org yg suka tgk design interior yg cun2, aku cadangkan korg make a stop at fX mall and eX mall.. tp paling recomend fX mall lah... design2 dalam tu mmg canggih2. every inch of that mall di design kan dgn baik. mmg nak ternganga jugak la masa masuk mall tu... abes jakun la... the garden pun x canggih begitu... sapa2 yg suka menda agak extreme, dlm fX mall ni ada 1 slide/gelongsor yg bermula dr tingkat 7, and abes dekat tingkat bawah skali... baru siap je gelongsor tu masa aku pegi... nk naik (ke turun eh?) slide tu, kna byr Rupiah 75,000. dlm....(jap nk kira) rm 30 kot...dh lupa dh kena bagi berapa..hehehe.... aku letak sket gambar interior fX mall utk korg menjamu mata...

p/s : gambar yang ada muka kitorg ada dlm friendster....nk tgk, silalah ke sana...

life lesson..

2008-11-11T04:20:00.000-08:00

aku dh kena tag ngan ude n put... so, langkah yg paling sopan santun adalah dengan menjawab soalan2 yang telah diberi... layannn je la.... reda je la...

1.Apakah benda yang paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
- aku. tanpa aku, xdela kehidupan aku. akan jadi kehidupan minah ke, awang ke, karim ke...

2. Apakah benda terakhir yang anda beli dengan wang sendiri?
- aku bayar roti telur masa makan breakfast tadi. does dat count?

3. Dimanakah tempat impian perkahwinan anda?
- sejujurnya, aku xde sebarang tempat perkahwinan impian.. aku x berani nk impikan perkahwinan sebenarnya..

4. Berapa lama anda rasa hubungan anda akan berkekalan?
- dgn siapa?

5. Adakah anda sedang di lamun cinta?
- yep, with emile hirsch... da*n cute, smoking hot guy! it has been 3 days since i've fallen for him...

6. Dimanakah restoran terakhir anda makan malam?
- makan malam eh...it wud be... Johny's dekat Alamanda semalam... kak crave for sumthing like Johny's to cure her unhappiness...dudduduudd...

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang anda beli?
- mcm 'rage of angles' by sidney sheldon je... xpon 'exhibition stand design'

8. Apakah nama penuh anda?
- Mardhiyah binti Mohamed bin Omar

9. Anda lebih senang dengan mak atau ayah?
- 22... abah best kalau buat salah, dia x marah, tp dia nasihat dgn cool skali. mak, kadang2 thinking dia mcm org muda, tp kadang2 sgt orthodoks.. ahhaha... tp skarang dgn mak la... xde choice pun...

10. Namakan seseorang yang anda ingin jumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?
- bakal suami? kalau wujud la..

11. Christina atau Britney?
- kena pilih ke? emile hirsch

12. Adakah anda mencuci pakaian anda sendiri?
- basuh sendri, dalam erti kata lain, pasang mesin basuh tu sendri...

13. Tempat yang paling seronok anda mahu pegi?
- kat mana ada semua ahli keluarga aku, yg semua org tak payah buat kerja, barbeque sensama sambil wat lawak bodoh, buli anak2 sedara yg ada 3, gossip dgn mak..

14. Pelukan atau ciuman?
- er, tgkla dengan siapa aktiviti itu perlu dilakukan.

15. Butirkan 4 perkara tentang orang yang tag anda
UDE
- kawan rapat sejak 11 tahun lepas
- kitorg penah bergaduh besar 2 kali
- sgt feminine compared to me
- rajin drive...sanggup drive for hours..

PUT
- kawan yg jadi makin rapat sejak 2-3 tahun ni
- gossip junkie
- direction blind
- suka mengajak aku ke arah gaya hidup feminine

16. 4 perkara yang amat saya gilai
- eating
- sleeping
- talking
- books
- words

17. 4 perkataan yang sering di ucapkan
- duhh..
- Bangang
- tu la pasal
- heh

18. 4 buah buku yang paling terbaru di baca
- rage of angles - sidney sheldon
- the other side of midnight - sidney sheldon
- the return - buku literature form 5
- buku2 design.. xdela baca.. lebih kepada menyelak2 helaian mukasurat..

19. 4 lagu yang boleh saya dengar berulang kali
- laskar pelangi-nidji ( aku tgk movie laskar pelangi ni masa kt jakarta.. sgt best..bleh menitiskan air mata woo..)
- the ghost of u - my chemical romance
- semua tak sama - padi
- cinta kan membawamu - dewa 19

20. 4 perkara saya pelajari tahun lalu
- jangan terlalu syg org yg bukan keluarga sendiri kalau nak selamat...
- keluarga sendri adalah golongan yang paling bermakna dlm hidup
- walaupun dah korbankan sesuatu utk mengejar masa depan, kadang2 pengorbanan tu kurang bermakna..
- tidak perlu terlalu berharap, dan jangan terlalu percaya...nothing's ever like what it seems..

21. 4 Mangsa tag seterusnya
- aber
- xde calon lain sbb aku xkenal org lain dah... put ngan ude is already out of quiestion aite?

the sweetest thing

2008-11-06T17:30:00.000-08:00

i just found out that someone did the sweetest thing for me this morning. it can be rated as the top 10 sweetest thing someone ever did for me. i was overwhelmed, happy and a bit ashamed of myself.

when i opened my frenster profile this morning, there's more than 3 frenster comment on my profile, from the same person, with huge, blinding images, with a note dat says,

"aku nk antaq komen bnyk2 spy cpat nko punya komen tukaq page..."

the reason she's doing what she's doing : she wants this 1 comment from this particular person who once upon a time plays a huge part in my life drama, to quickly be left behind, so that the comment from this particular person wont easily be read by my frenster's profile viewers...and also by me...

tak sangka ada org akan terfikir untuk buat macam tu utk aku...which is very nice, and thoughtful... a simple act but it means a lot...

thanx ian,
walopon komen ko yg penuh dgn gambar tu kadang2 membuatkan page profile aku lambat betul nk load, this time, aku xpenah rasa sehappy ni bila nmpk komen2 bergambar dari ko... and sorry aku selalu garang dgn ko... ko kenal aku kan... :D

from jakarta with sorethroat...

2008-11-03T22:29:00.000-08:00

just got back from jakarta...

not really just got back.. been 3 days since... but i still haven't unpack...

made sum kind of daily journal of my activities there..with the intention of posting it here... but not today... too lazy lazy to think.. i'll do it in a couple of days.. i promise....(myself)

for those who misses me, dont be nomore.... coz i'm back!! hahhaha....

hunger at 3 a.m

2008-10-22T12:07:00.000-07:00

it's 3 in the morning.

and i'm still awake.

furthermore, i'm a very hungry. my tummy are making noises. the kind of noise that is not cute, but sounds like a rumbling of a monster. raksasa yg nak lawan dgn ultraman. and raksasa tu tgh kalah sbb ultraman dh tembak dia dgn laser yg kuar dr tangan tu. seriously, that's how my stomach sounds... very unlike the sounds of keroncong... makes me wonder why org slalu guna the phrase , "perutnya berkeroncong kerana terlalu lapar..." coz seriously, my tummy never make any keroncong-like noise when im hungry... it's always the rumbling of a losing monster in ultraman..poor monster... bad ultraman...

i seriously am hungry. i cud eat a horse....but not really..u know what i really mean, damit... i am now envisioning a plate of nasi lemak. nasi lemak royale ke, nasi lemak mak ke... haih... sedapnya...

huhuhu.... makkk.... laparrr!!!!

the black beauty is on its way!!!

2008-10-16T04:23:00.000-07:00

my mom broke the best news ever to me today...

I'M GETTING MY CAR NEXT WEEK!

im am soo excited, when my mak call me to break the news. why mak got the news first when it's my car? well, my mak, being my mak, had already intructed the SA (sales agent) to break the news to her first, before me.. but, nevermind that. i'm getting my car next week! this is so exciting. it's better than having a boyfriend! having a boyfriend will sumtimes cut down ur freedom, but having a car gives u more freedom (at least that's what me and ude think) i think october is the best month in this colourful year 2008 so far..

huhuh...
i'm glad i did'nt take the white saga offered by the SA 1 week ago. mesti rasa mcm hampeh jer kalau tau yg i can have the black 1 just after waiting for another 2 weeks. hehhee... i'll be taking the car after my trip to jakarta kot...so, in the mean time, mak can have her time with that car.. i know she've always wanted to drive a brand new car. but dia x sampai hati nak jual wira biru dia.. "she never cause me trouble, that blue wira... i don't want to sell it just to buy a new 1 that might give me trouble.." now i see where i get my loyalty quality from... *big grin*

oh god,
thanx for the good news! i feel blessed..
:)

PINK - be aware!!

2008-10-12T01:38:00.000-07:00

this is a response to ude's breast cancer awareness campaign. which means i'm going pink for this month October. but i'm not going to go entirely pink this month. i'll just use a pink font. hehhee... so, here's to pink :

PINK by Aerosmith

Pink it´s my new obsession
Pink it´s not even a question
Pink on the lips of your lover, ´cause
Pink is the love you discover
Pink as the bing on your cherry
Pink ´cause you are so very
Pink it´s the color of passion
`Cause today it just goes with the fashion
Pink it was love at first sight, yea
Pink when I turn out the light, and
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight
You could be my flamingo
´Coz pink is the new kinda lingo
Pink like a deco umbrella
It´s kink - but you don´t ever tell her
Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink gets me high as a kite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight
I want to be your lover
I wanna wrap you in rubber
As pink as the sheets that we lay on
Pink is my favorite crayon, yeah
Pink it was love at first sight
Pink when I turn out the light
Pink it´s like red but not quite
And I think everything is going to be all right
No matter what we do tonight

BLM putih vs BLM hitam : mana lagi cun???

2008-10-09T19:53:00.000-07:00

UPDATE ON MY DEAR DARLING CAR :

the car dealer/salesman from eon called me yesterday. with a question,
"warna putih ok dak?"
"em, xwapa minatla warna putih.."
"bukan apa, warna putih ada dlm stok,kalau nak, hari ni bleh dpt.cantik jugak putih ni. sy pun pakai pesona putih"
"dok kt sini,susah sikit nk cuci keta. putih ni nanti senang kotor cik talib."
"oo...xpala mcm tu..sbb bos saya sruh tanya. kot2 nak. nk bagi kat mardhiyah dulu."
"xpala cik talib, sy prefer warna hitam lagi. er, cik talib dok tanya pasal warna keta ni, loan saya dh lulus kar?"
"eh, loan dah lulus dah. sbb tu kalau nk yg warna putih ni, la ni pun bleh amik dah. settle suma payment, bleh angkat lah"

=.="

loan keta aku dh lulus, tapi dia x inform aku pun! penat je aku dok pk2, risau2 pasal nk kna order keta lain plak. wat penat je aku serabut kepala pk, camana aku nk bergerak kalau xde keta lepas pindah masuk ngan kak aku nanti. huhu...sengal la cik talib ni. akhirnya, lulus jugak loan keta aku. hampir2 dh aku nk cancel amik BLM tu. ingt nk tukar to sum other car yg cheaper, mcm savvy lite ke, viva lite ke...suma yg lite2 lah.hehehe...

the snow white

my soon-to-be black beauty

i'll make it look like dis sumday...sumday..

BLM putih. kalau cik talib tu ckp pasal keta tu ada dlm stok masa aku masih di kedah, kemungkinan besar, mmg aku angkat je walopon tu bkn color yg aku nk in the 1st place, black. putih ni suci sgt rasanya...mcm buruk pun ada.. tapi klu nk tgu BLM hitam aku, bulan depan la baru dapat..haih, alang2 tgu 5 bulan, tgu je la lagi kan. mintak2 lepas balik dr jakarta,dptla keta tu... amin...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!

2008-10-09T19:34:00.000-07:00

ok.

first thing first.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!
minta maaf kalau segala apa yg ada dekat blog ni pernah menyinggung atau mensigung hati dan perasaan sapa2.. kadang2 bila menaip, semua benda pun rasa betul. kadang2 bila hati tgh sakit/bengang/marah/sedih, mula la sesedap rasa nk paku org kan...apa boleh buat kan... i'm only human bak kata garfiled. :D

raya tahun ni agak meriah, aku cuti hampir 2 minggu, sampai blog pun xberupdate. bz dgn anak2 sedara yg mcm2 kerenah. al maklumla,tahun ni giliran dua dua abg yg dh kawin tu raya kt Lot 36. suma jadi kelam kabut sbb the 2 two-year-old todlers xleh bersua muka. sbb? yg sorg tu suka sgt usik yg sorg lagi (eventho yg kena usik tu badannya lagi tembam dr yg mengusik). cihah (pengusik) pantang je nampak wawa(mangsa usik), ada je menda dia nk buat. ditolak, ditampar,dirampas mainan...haih... xpnah lak aku ajar dorg camtu... salah aku kah xreti mendidik anak sedara???? ahhahahaa..

tahun ni xberapa dpt berkumpul dgn kawan2..masing2 pun dh ada commitment sendri. jumpak pun sekejap je. and, bertambah lah sorg lagi kawan ku yg dah kena jual : honey bunny dh ditunangkan.. umor dh nk masuk 25 ni, seems like suma org pun kalut nk settle down, buka 1 lagi cawangan family, and i dont really like it... i mean, wooo...24 is young. what's the rush? and the fact that they r all hooked up, and not as free as i am kinda..make me sad??? annoyed maybe? or, just admit it, i'm jealous?? hahaha...

whatever it is, raya is still a success. got all the rest i need, and now am ready to roll!! working time!!

i missed u

2008-09-23T09:29:00.000-07:00

he read my blog.
i never for once, ever, thought he'll read that anniversary post, let alone leave a comment.
not 1, but 2.
" i missed u"
yes, i missed u too. but suddenly i realize, i dont miss him as the 'the bf' anymore. i missed him, as a good fren which i lost. the prize i have to pay when i decide to have a bf rather than a dear fren, more than 3 years ago.
amazingly, it doesn't hurt as it used to be, no heartache. and ironically, i cried myself to sleep, just 2 days before the 'comment incident'.
without i even realize it, he, now seems distant, unfamiliar, and a tad bit boring. ha ha ha
i guess, maybe, just maybe, my heart is finally free. it may not be whole yet, but finally is free. the heart feel so light...

so aidi,
yes, i missed u too. but just as a fren that i lost, a fren that i care about...finally...

and so miss fiance,
u dont need to be alarm by my presence. he luv u, enough to marry u. nothing will change just becoz he miss me. that's just the way he is. u told me urself, u know him more than i do...

but then again..
we never know.... do we??
pisang boleh berbuah lagi???
*smirk on my face*

and the award goes to..

2008-09-21T23:45:00.000-07:00

heh.
dah lama ude tag aku on award 'kreative blogger' ni. bkn pasal aku creative ke apa, pasal dia dah xde org lain nk tag. ahhahaha....
ok. mari kita buat segala yg diarahkan kepada blogger yg dpt nomination.

mula-mula, ucapan ala2 kt filem festival :

assalamualaikum semua...
"im going to speak in english becoz i sound stupid if i speak malay....-.-"
want to thank god for giving me the 'talent' and time to blog, thus making me 1 of the nominee.. then, i wan to thank u my family, thank mak....then my cat at home. last but not least my frens, my exs', my enemies, my rival, the producer, my fan, the director, my stalker, my boz, the neighbours....etc.."

ok, dah merapu kan.ahaha...xde idea punya pasal...nasibla..

1. The winner may put the logo on his/her blog.
tu, ada dah...tho aku rasa logo tu lil' bit not so creative....ahahaha...

2. Put the link to the person you got the award from.
dah, tu sedari ude tu....

3. Nominate 5 blogs.
4. Put the link to the blog.
5. Leave a massage, err, message for your nominees

dan calonnya ialah....
1) put - layout blog dia best... aku nk gak mcm tu..tp mcm feminine sgt la plak...
2) kak mieza - slalu masak sedap2..tp bkn nk bagi aku makan...
3) ude - aku xkira, aku nk gak letak ang...mn da org len dah..ahaha...
4) sley - im one of the blogger kan..mestila pura2 puji blog sendri..ahahaa...
5) dah ar sket2....over lak..

siap!

hair disaster???

2008-09-21T23:20:00.000-07:00

i cut my hair.
short.
yesterday.
what do u my-blog-readers-people think???
does it suit me?
give a comment, leave it on the comment panel, or the chat box.
kalau x ok, i'll do the hair extension.
blame the short hair on K-drama i'm watching now.
huhuhu..
i think they r ok, tp my fren ckp nope (actually, dorg ckp buruk, haahaaha)...i look like a schoolgirl dorg ckp. ye ke???

please

2008-09-18T09:32:00.001-07:00

i wrote a couple of cheesy poem back in USM. mostly when i was feeling down, or sad. i guess sadness bring out the poetic side of people, me in particular. i found this 1 poem while i was rummaging thru old files. i used it in my text animation assignment back in 2004. the lecturer likes my work, and me, :D , ahahahha..so i get an A for that assignment. i dont know how to put the video animation here, so, am just gonna put the short poem here, without the animation.

PLEASE.

it has been a long time
since i know
i am not what you want
and i am not even what i want

but you know
there is nothing
i can do about it
i can't ask
for your attention
never dream of
love and devotion

but surely,
i am not too low
to ask you for this
please walk away
please don't be by myside
please don't ask me if i'm ok
just ignore me
and walk away...

mardhiyah mohamed
10012004

yeah, i know, it's too cheesy. but that's what i had in mind at that time. i had a crush on some guy, but the guy acted like he's all that, i'm not good enuff, bla2. (which at that time seems so seems so frustrating/sad/all those down feeling stuffs). eventho the poem is not that great, i still like it, as it still touch my heart whenever i read it. coz it's my poem. if i dont like it, who will???

lean on..

2008-09-18T09:32:00.000-07:00

In our life,
there must be something you can treasure,
something to lean on to,
when you're lonely and depressed,
or,
at times when,
you feel like letting yourself go,
you should have something you run to,
and cling on to.

Have you found that 'something to lean on to'?

been tagged!

2008-09-11T03:34:00.000-07:00

i've been tagged!!
actually kan, aku xpenah wat kerja tag men tag ni. up until beberapa menet tadi, aku xtau pun aapa itu tagging dlm blog. ahahahha.. so setelah ude men tag aku, baru la aku paham kebendanya tag tu..

1) First time naik kapal terbang
- masa pegi sabah lepas matriks. xdelah hebat sgt ke apa. yg aku ingt, letih gila sbb 2 jam setengah dlm flight, with nothing to look at. just the plain sky..adeh..mmg nyesal xbw buku time tu. then, 2nd time masa pegi medan, Indon time studio trip 2nd year. kejap je naik. 40 menet. xsempt nk makan roti yg dorg bagi pun.

2) First time beranak
- uish...lambat lagi tu... bapaknya anak pun aku xkenal lagi sapa.

3) First time pergi oversea
- masa pegi Medan ngan kawan2 studio tu lah. excited sungguh. dah la pegi ngan kawan2. siap my ex hantarkn kt bus USM, ala2 nk pegi 3 thn, padahal, 4 hari 3 mlm je. drama tu. tp mmg pengalaman yang sgt best. i like indonesia. cantik sgt. culture dia, art dia. mmg worth the money la. berbaloi aku simpan duit PTPTN, xpegi tukar phone ke, joli katak ke mcm org lain. paling xleh ingt, kwn2 stdio aku 2-3 org ni dok minat kt si agus (klu aku xsilap nm la) si pembantu pemandu bus tu... adehla...dorg tu mmg xleh slamat. mn pegi, ada je nk minat. pegi bangkok dorg minat drebar bus kami, pi redang, dorg minat abg diver. mmg gila2 dorg. kadang2 aku rasa nk gila ngan dorg.

4) First time duduk jauh dr famili
- of course la time matriks. ini dok jauh dr famili for more than 3-4 days ni. i was soooo homesick. dah la masa tu abah dah xde. hp pun lom ada lagi. mak aku jenis xde senang2 belikan hp kt anak dia. tp last2 dia sendri yg xtahan, asik kena tgu aku call guna public, last2, aku dptla my first 3315, brand new. dgn maxis line lagi. mak ckp hadiah spm. hehehe...mak mmg cool. masa nk packing barang nk masuk matriks, aku packing barang ala2 nk pegi camping 4-5 hari je. hanger bw 6 je. mmg hati xikhlas nk pegi. hahaha

5) First time keje
- mcm ude, xpenah aku berpeluang kerja b4 abes degree ni. mak aku akan bagi ayat mcm "dari kerja kt luar, baik dok umah, wat kerja kt umah,then mak bayar lah. dari mak bayar kt org lain,baik mak bayar anak sendri..." adess.. so, setiap kali cuti penggal ke apa2 cuti panjang, kerja aku jadi amah la.. itu yg byk masa melepak and merayau dgn Ude tuh...so, kerja 1st aku yg dpt payment, dgn boz aku skarang lah, tp masa tu freelancer la,wat dr umah. then, dgn FK Architect..then baru la ngan yeop a.k.a boz tersayang...

6) First time rasa diri gemuk
- cheh...aku senantiasa rasa gemuk eventho masa aku kecik2 dulu.. sbb org slalu inject dlm pala aku ni, yg aku ne gemuk.. padahal masa tgk dlm gambar balik.xdenye gemuk mn pun.. tp skarang, xdpt dinafikan dah...gemuks than ever...

7) First time bercinta
- dgn adik yeop. ahahhahahahaa... xde makne nye komen panjang. it just wasnt mean to be. he's engaged to be married anyway. shud have listen to my brain rather than blindly follow my heart. bad heart.

8) First time rasa diri cantek
- cantek eh... xdela rasa cantik mn, just rasa syukur sbb xde cacat cela. i know, i have self-esteem problem. so?

9) First time masuk cinema
- mcm time darjah 6...tgk 'lurah dendam'... dgn kawan-kawan skolah... not sure my mak tau ke tak...dah 12 thn dah pun...

10) First time admitted in hospital
- xpenah admitted ke spital. hatta masa mak aku lahirkan aku pun x. mak aku bersalinkan aku kt umah...hehehe...xsabar2 nk tgk dunia kot...nyesal2..

aku nk tag PUTNAD , tp rasa mcm dia mesti xde masa nk merapu camni je..hehee

hometown / raya preparations

2008-09-09T03:23:00.000-07:00

just got back from Alor Setar dis morning.
sampai Hentian Kajang around 6.15am. huhuhu..letih sungguh.. letih sbb duduk atas kerusi, kaki tergantung. al maklumla, OKU, kaki kurang panjang. and the bus seat is made of PVC, so imagine how uncomfortable it is. but i stil manage to doze off for sum time, letih gila. 3 hari kt rumah mak, mmg jadual penuh. masak2, sediakan surat perjanjian utk rumah sewa mak, went out shopping, buat unggun api (bakar sampah le tu), and the list goes on and on... thats what fun about balik rumah mak, xde masa nk rasa boring. bz je manjang. ada je menda nk dibuat.

neway,
shopped for raya preparations while kt rumah mak. went to giant, beli cornflakes, butters for biscuits, jelly and peach in tin for my raya trifle, ketupat nasi mini for raya, cordials... early preparations eh.. even already made a list of what to cook/bake for raya. hehehe...list barang to buy pun dah ada...

ah yes,
list. also made a list of people to be send cards to. so here's the list :
- tok teh in Jawi, Penang
- my sleys frens = ude, banosh, yunie, put in ireland, pon, emon
- aunts and uncles <---atas arahan mak.huhuh..
- dear old lecturers in USM = Dr Zizi, Dr Ghaffar, Cik Li, cik shamila?
- teachers in Sultanah Asma School? ada lagi ke diorang kt sana? been 7 years.
- sum1's sister. i sent it last year. thot of sending it again dis year. hate the brother, not the sister.. huhuh..
- the niece, the ultimate niece, kak long.
- FK Architect. shud i? mak said i shud. wish i can be more like mak.. huhuh..

that's a long list. wondering when will i get the time to run to Alamanda,buy the cards and sent it all to the people in the list above. maybe dis weekend.

3rd day of puasa/trip to jakarta

2008-09-03T05:14:00.000-07:00

wah...
sgt kenyang hari ni.. inilah masalah aku..mkn je kenyang, makan je, kenyang.. juadah berbuka puasa hari ni bertema kan recycle... kak su masak ayam dan daging masak kicap,menggunakan ayam n daging satay yg x abes mkn, di beli mlm b4 puasa..then nasi goreng padprik... of coz la guna nasik berbuka semlm..hehhe, then ada la masak kurma... yg ni xde la recycle... hhehehe...

huhuh...
sengkak le lepas buka puasa.. tak paham mcmana org boleh buka puasa makan sampai sejam.. xmeletup ke perut dorg? gamaknya perut dorg besar tong sampah bandaran kot...

herm..
baru dpt tao dr boz, yg tarikh trip kami ke jakarta dah brought forward, bkn 3.12.08 dah, tp dh jadi 29.10.08.. and he already even bought the ticket!! ekspress betol la boz yg sorg neh... excited gak. it will be my 1st trip to jakarta, and 2nd trip to Indonesia, the land of art and beauty. well, at least that's what i think of Indonesia.. the design there is sooo...beautiful.. modern but still complete with their own beautiful culture. really look forward to feast my eyes with the designs there... but the kureng part is, im the only gurl in the party of 4... gonna hv the room all by myself. yay! hehehe... hope to catch some handsome cowok (cowok ke cewek arh?) there. ahahaha... gatalnya la anak makcik salmiah neh!

ramadhan the 1st..

2008-08-31T19:07:00.000-07:00

ramadhan the first.

ramadhan come again. marking another year in my life. phew... time really do fly eh... did i achieved anything in 1 year? let's look back..
- i quit my job in FK Architect in Alor Star. cant stand working with immature 35++ yo people. ops, bulan puasa, xleh ngumpat org..minus 1 point on the first day..ahaha..

-made the big decision by coming here to putrajaya the lala land and working for yeop a.k.a boz. never regret it cept for the fact of having to leave mak in Alor Star with 'dear' younger brother.. luv my job now.. luv u too boz..kekekeeek
-moving on and patching the broken heart and bracing the broken arm.. i dont need you id to live. hehehhe... nk gak mention nama dia eh... that means i've move on..

-cutting my old, dear old long hair.. welcome shorter, younger looking and messier hair!

-buying a car.. with so much hassle.. but i need a car badly.. should i settle for savvy instead of waiting for BLM? macam pungguk rindukan bulan dah..nunggu dpt kereta.. what with the overly fussy and mengada2 AMbank.. org gaji lagi kecik pun bleh pakai keta.. aku xlayak? huhuh..

-trying to overcome relationship/man phobia.. had a crush... but then got crushed.. so phobia takes over again.. uhuhuh...

- built sum self-confidence???

p/s : selamat hari merdeka (kemarin) and selamat berpuasa semua...!!!

accident prone heart/dam* stupid cupid

2008-08-27T09:56:00.000-07:00

i got hurt..again..
i dont know what's wrong with me, but i keep getting hurt. i guess i'm accident prone. i hate it when i got hurt again and again. wish i have no feelings to begin with. wud be easier u know. i wont go hurting myself like i do now. it still hurts after 8 years. how on earth did i manage to like, hide it, bury it beneath my other feelings for 8 years, but stupidly let it out after 2 days??? me and my stupid feelings. i shud like let it stay buried for 80 years more. then i wouldn't feel so hurt like now. i have to spend rm100++ just to heal my wound, but it still dont work. what else should i do? run away?? nice idea.. i can do that..

great weekend

2008-08-27T09:21:00.000-07:00

last weekend, my best buddies turun putrajaya, just to meet up. 3 hari lepak sama2, rasa mcm xcukup je. walopon ada sorg yg monyok tahap menyedihkan, tatap xmematikan mulut2 murai kitorang.hehhee.. mmg macam mulut murai cabut ekor la bila semua berkumpul, walaupun xberapa cukup korum sebenarnya. sorg dh ada kt subang, tp apakan daya tidak berdaya dia mai sini kan...so nuff said...tgk gambar je lah..

wall-E and komuter tren..

2008-08-17T19:38:00.000-07:00

smlm was such a tiring day!

i went to midvalley megamall, kuar tgk wayang dgn jai @ eja @ faizal. mmg mencabar perjalanannya. disebbkn aku xde keta, terpaksala menaiki kenderaan awam..naik tren yg lain2 aku xkisah, tp bab nk kna naik komuter on weekend neh, aduhh.. serik gak la walupon dah kena banyak kali..tp yg kemarin is the worst. 6 train passed by and still xbleh naik tren sbb sgt crowded. packed! lagi dasat dari sardin dlm sos tomato dlm tin. aku kuar dr mid vallley kol 5.30, i got home at like, 9.30...gila..mn tak nya.. naik komuter,tgu for like 2 hours, then naik klia transit,tgu for 20 minutes (but i dont mind la, coz dia mmg on time), then sampai putrajaya sentral, sbb my bro kuar pegi shopping kt kajang, so i have to ride the nadi putra bus home! kena tgu lagi, for like 20 minutes gak kot... then the bus pusing2 makan angin dlm putrajaya lak. masuk segala ceruk hulu banat dlm putrajaya tu.. last2 at 930pm...barula sampai umah...huhuhuh... dgn letih, dgn busuknya, dgn lapornya...

tp highlight of the day is the lepak2 with jai and the movie la. we watched wall-e, the cute robot animation. best sgt. mmg asik gelak je for the first half of the movie. citer dia pasal apa jadi kt bumi pada tahun 2800 sumthing, selepas 700 tahun manusia tinggalkn bumi utk pergi ke outer space sbb bumi dah terlalu byk sampah, so kerajaan ( dlm citer ni of coz la kerajaan amerika kan...xtao la apa jadi kt manusia bumi lain, contohnya mcm org mesia....) built satu space ship besar. so suma manusia di tawarkan utk ikot pelayaran '5 thn' sementara bumi dibersihkn... tp last2 pelayaran tu dah takes 700 thn..so yg tinggal kt bumi hanyalah wall-E, robot pemampat sampah..yg tinggal sekor dia je sbb yg lain dah rosak... best sgt citer ni...so sapa2 baru berkira2 and belom decide sama ada nk tgk ke tak citer ne, aku recommend kan lah pegi tgk. tak rugi. sesuai lah utk semua peringkat umor... ewah...

happy break-up anniversary sayang!!

2008-08-16T05:41:00.000-07:00

people said, "time flies, when you're having fun"

but in my case, time still flies even when im not having fun. time flies like a Concorde when i have works/projects to submit. rasa mcm 24 jam x cukup... anyway, sedar tak sedar, it's already been a year after i broke up with him. feels like baru sebulan. i'll be lying if i said feels like yesterday, coz it feels like yesterday that his new gurl came into my life just to make it more miserable...heh
enuff with the sad2 part.

to aidi hasrizal,
i know i did hurt u sumtimes, and i may act like i hate u, but i never could bring myself to really hate u. i have to hate u in order to move on..and let you move on. i'm sorry for what my sister said to you...like u never meant for your fiancee to disturb me like that, i also never meant for my sister to say those words to u. but the message u sent me afterwards, did break my heart into pieces.. i want to explain ur accusations to me, but then, it wont do any good anymore.. up until now, i still couldnt bring myself to talk to u, and maybe explain. but i guess, u dont need anymore explanation from me..

so, happy break up anniversary aidi hasrizal...i know u dont even remember when we broke up, but as u know, or may not know, i'm a date person..

*haih, aku letak note tu kat sini pon mcm dia baca blog aku...sengal tol la ko ni mard..xpe,janji lepas sket apa aku rasa..nanti dah mampu call dia, baru ckp betol2..heeee

a little show off

2008-08-14T09:17:00.000-07:00

i know it's not good to show off, but mr paul said i shud have more confidence in myself. dont be afraid to show off a bit.but just a bit,jgn lebey2 he said. hee. na,actually, he didnt really say all that, but something yg lebih kurg la maksud dia..

so, today im showing off my peach trifle which i made yesterday. yay! i woke up at 7.30am,tros je menonong ke bilik air, gosok gigi, cuci2 muka sket, head straight to the kitchen (sounds like the house besar sgt...hehee..) and start preparing the trifle. xdela susah mn pon, but having to wait until the custard keras then wait sumore till the jelly keras then baru put on the yogurt and peach, made the process seems renyah/complicated/etc... but then seriously, senang gila buatnya.xperlu mixer,xperlu scale (which sampai sekarang pon belom terbeli...mcmana nk bake cake nee!) and most importantly,it doesnt involve slaving around the oven heat!! so here it is, my first ever peach trifle ( which aku xdela makan sgt...buat sbb suka tgk color dia lawa je pon...heee)

PRESENTING..THE PEACH TRIFLE!!!

ok, for those yg mcm teringin je nk try out this trifle, sila click kt link blog my sissy in law yar. she got tones of recipes there, designed with bz moms/ladies/wives/org bujang in mind, as she is a working+studying mom herself.

the road not taken a.k.a the other option

2008-08-12T02:59:00.000-07:00

let's make today, a poem day. i dont know why,but whenever i'm feeling down, i always have poems in my head.any poem. and today this poem keep ringing in my head, and im in no mood of doing other thing but read poems, so, im going to share (if there's sum1 else other than me who read this blog) one of my favorite poem, 'the road not taken' by Robert Frost.

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

the poem talks about options. so, u see,options is sumthing big in our life. we need options. but sumtimes options drive me nuts. shud i have dinner or shud i not? BLM or VIVA? options will create sumthing that we call dilemma. if sum1 is 'dlm dilema', it's a bad thing. like me. im on dilemma. maybe i shud do what the Robert Frost did, take the road less traveled by. but it will be tough, and lonely travelling in a road less traveled....

there has been a death in the opposite house

2008-08-12T02:36:00.000-07:00

today,
as in 12th of august, 2008, my uncle/my mom's older brother, died after sufferingfrom various disease for a couple of months. from his home in jengka, Pahang, he was transfered to Kuantan general hospital, then to Kuala Lumpur general hospital. me and my sis managed to visit him twice in the KL hospital, and the last visit at his son's house in shah alam on saturday the 9th, hours before his sons took him back to his and my mom's hometown, sg bakap, penang. the news about his death doesnt came unexpectedly, as me,my mom, my sis and my bro had seen the look he had, the look that we can sumtimes see on sum1 who will leave us. yeap, we've seen that look on abah's face, but we didn't recognized it then. i'm okay, but the news sure bring back some sad memory from 2001..

whenever i heard/think of sumthing as sad as this one, there's always 1 poem that will come flashing in mind..

There's Been a Death in the Opposite House

by Emily Dickinson

There's been a death in the opposite house
As lately as to-day.
I know it by the numb look
Such houses have always.

The neighbors rustle in and out,
The doctor drives away.
A window opens like a pod,
Abrupt, mechanically;

Somebody flings a mattress out,--
The children hurry by;
They wonder if It died on that,--
I used to when a boy.

The minister goes stiffly in
As if the house were his,
And he owned all the mourners now,
And little boys besides;

And then the milliner, and the man
Of the appalling trade,
To take the measure of the house.
There'll be that dark parade

Of tassels and of coaches soon;
It's easy as a sign,--
The intuition of the news
In just a country town.

i think i'm afraid of my bozz

2008-07-23T08:17:00.000-07:00

i'm afraid of my own bozz.
i THINK i'm afraid of my bozz.
ive been avoiding him for a couple of days. it's actually kinda easy to do, coz he's in Bandung at the moment, and i work from home. but still, i think i'm afraid of him.
why? i guess it's bcoz i have no update for him on the upcoming new project presentation, and i'm so nervous of the chances that we can get the job, which is by the way, a very big project, with great prospects for the company future. what if we dont get the job? what if the company's president doesnt like my design? what if my gurl friend and her bf arent able to finish the drawings in time? what should i do? what am i going to do? quit my job and balik kampung and bela kambing? or maybe i cud pretend like nothing happen and still work with the bozz?
i'm on a verge of a nervous breakdown. i'm so afraid that i cant even concentrate on working like normal. until the presentation is due, i'll be living in a mess...with a messy head and a messy room and messy blog too..
i'm so dam* nervous...i cud sleep more than i used to.
oh,i got so much things to be done still but on other thoughts, i'm going to sleep.

6 days of cuti-cuti..

2008-07-08T19:20:00.000-07:00

wargh...
been more than a week yar aku tak blogging di sini. after balik kampung from kenduri Put Nad, i've been quite bz with work. what with 2 projects in designing stage and 1 (which is suppose to be under me) in constructing stage.

yeah...
it feels good to be able to go back home for nearly a week dat day. it's not enough, mind you, tp cukup la untuk melepaskan rindu dekat rumah, my mom and her car. hee.. anyway, during 6 days of cuti2, i managed to spare sum time to book a BLM for me. M-line metallic black. which is expected to arrive in not less than 6 months..*sigh.... apa boleh buat kan, tunggu je lah..but these couple of days,i've been thinking, mampu ke aku nk bayar sampai rm511 sebulan for that car nanti? coz my mom prefer to finish paying back the car loan in 7 years je.huh,letih tu RM511 sebulan...i guess no more makan2 at Johny's/pizza hut/sushi king, regularly. hehee..and maybe have to cut down the expenses for my design books, baju, travelling. wahh... buying a car surely needs a lot of sacrifices..am i up to it yet? i dont like living with a tight budget..huhuh..

anyway,
on another note, Put Nad's wedding was beautiful, and memorable. me and ude went to all 3 events, starting from her akad nikah, reception in Hotel Sentosa later dat night, and the wedding feast at her family house in Mentaloon, Kedah. the akad nikah was soo sweet, nearly make me shed sum spinster tears, but being me, i dont shed any tears at all.hee..and at the hotel reception, i was the bridesmaid (duh!). i look damn stupid in my outfit..dont even want to remember how i look like dat night. but the couples (Put Nad/syafiek + Put's Big bro/Sis I.L) looks handsome together..match made in haven i guess..

owh,
now is the fruits season in my kampung. i got to crack sum mangoesteen which i climb the tree and plucked it myeslf, devour delicious rambutan, take a look at sum dukong (coz its not ripe to eat yet) and indulge myself in mom's delicious sambal petai udang and gulai ikan temenung. its kari ikan kembong for those in the southern part. 6 days is never enough, but still i got to enjoy myself to the fullest. glad i took dat time off, for i'll be quite bz for these couple of months onwards. neway, i'll load sum pics of Put Nad's wedding and sum on fruits which i took around my house.till next time, daaa!!!(macam rancangan kanak-kanak kt tv plak)

nail disaster

2008-06-22T19:37:00.000-07:00

i bought a nail henna last night. it says "black nail henna" on the box. i believe it and bought it, 2 of it. but it only cost me rm1.50 each. cheap! anything that cost less than rm10 is cheap for me. when it past that rm10 standard, say rm11.30, i'll consider it expensive.... no need to buy if dont need it. but if it's rm9.99 and below, it's a must have. it's a bargain. and that makes me a female. coz thats how female thinks. we buy unnecessary cheap stuffs..

as soon as i got home last night, me and my sis, excitedly put on the "black nail henna", which of coz, should be black. but after 1 hour waiting for the henna to absorb, and after washing it, well, this is when the unthinkable happen.

the "black nail henna", that should be black, turn out to be RED!! which means i have RED nails!! RED!! i dont buy a black nail henna so i could have RED NAILS!! it should be BLACK! it says BLACK, the label on the box says BLACK!! the people at the henna factory must be color blind. or maybe, in Pakistan, their 'black', is actually our red. i was conned. i was conned into believing that my nails would turn to black...why? WHY?

(i also drag my niece into the mess. but she insist on wearing it on just 3 fingers. she's smarter than i am. SHE KNOWS.)

gym, anyone?

2008-06-19T07:29:00.000-07:00

i'm fat.

so i need to tone down. but there's no way i could diet here,in this house where my sisinlaw keep on cooking mouth watering dishes, making me unable to eat in a way a slim-wannabe-fat-gurl should eat, moderately. huh, hate u kak su. why do u have to cook all my fav dish???

anyway, i think about joining a gym. it should do the trick. it's like, if u have to pay for it, u wont waste it, right? right? urgh. dont discourage me la... the will to join the gym is burning now, sampai rasa mcm malam ni jugak nak enroll. gila apa. so, i try and google for any nearby fitness centre available around bangi/putrajaya, and came across 2 fitness centre. none of it in putrajaya, what a shame. hate putrajaya when it comes to gym. but there's this gym called the TLS fitness centre. it's quite nearby i think, in sg chua, kajang. the gym sounds quite intresting, from all the info i gathered in the forums. but there's a mix info on the fees.sum said it cost round rm160/m. and some said rm 118/m...but im hoping it's not more than rm150/m..if not aa...letih jugak nak bayar sampai rm160/m.. mula la nk terpadam api yang berkobar ni...hehe.. the centre also hv some yoga classes, other group fitness classes, etc...and swimming pool. yay! swimming pool! like i know how to swim...duh... =.="
so, am gonna check out the gym after coming back from my kampong.. it's my best fren wedding next week..most probably, i'll be the bridesmaid..urgh..when i thought about all the smiling i have to do during the ceremony, it gives me a creep. i have to smile and look nice?? so not me... but think of all the cute guys dat might be there mard...and dat...kinda lower down my creepiness feel level..

BLM lagi

2008-06-14T06:50:00.000-07:00

aku kat rumah abg aku kt tanjung malim. mcm yang kak aku dh cadangkn (refer post lepas), aku kena tunggu kat pintu pagar proton nya kilang kt proton city kt tanjung malim ni. aku dah nk pegi dah kat kilang tu,tp mikirkn silap2 kna halau ngan pak gad yang yg xsebarapa hensem tu, aku pon just pegi ke showroom proton kat tg malim jela. manala tao, dorg ada stok. yelakan, kedai bkn main dekat dgn kilang xkan xde stok kot! tapi malang nya nasib ku, dorg mmg ada stok, tp cuma BLM yg entry line yg warna putih berbumper hitam, and M line punya yg warna zircon green auto. aduh!! dah la bkn color yang aku nak, N line je plak tu. tapi yang paling ironic, dah 4 proton dealer aku tanya n survey, dealer yang kt tg malim, yg dekat ngan kilang proton yg bagi masa queue yang paling lama antara suma kedai, 7-8 bln !!!! he gotta be kidding me!! adeh..
and ada plak org yg nak jugak2 soh aku beli myvi.. aku bkn xnk.just dat aku xnk la yg mahal sgt...nanti mao kapak gaji aku..hhuhuh...

BMW vs BLM

2008-06-11T19:40:00.000-07:00

owh,owh.
news flash. my mom just called from proton showroom in alor setar. tempoh menunggu untuk BLM sama mcm kt area sini, lepas raya baru dapat...alahai...xdptla aku bergaya sakan raya nanti...keciwa rasanya hati...adakah kereta 2nd hand akan menjadi pilihanku selepas ini? dapatkah aku menunggu abg BLM selama 6 bln? sehari pon sudah ku rasa seperti sebulan..apatah lagi 6 bln..mao nya rasa mcm..180 bulan...lama tu...uhuhuh..terseksa jiwaku dek penangan abg BLM..
agak2 kalau aku mintak dekat en bosh nk beli bimmer putih dia yg mengancam tu, dgn harga rm10,000, dia bagi tak? kira macam wat amal lah, sedekah kat anak yatim..ala,bkn mintak free pon, aku nk beli tu...rm10,000 pon duit apa???

anti social

2008-06-11T19:08:00.000-07:00

aku blom mandi.
aku blom mandi sebab hari ini aku rasa mcm malas nk mandi walopon aku sedar yang aku sangat busuk. tapi mandi bermakna aku kena bergerak masuk kedalam bilik air. and i dont feel like moving. i feel so fat right now.i know when i feel fat,i should get my as* moving and do sumthing about it.but i really dont feel like moving. all i wanna do is sit in this plastic-non ergonomic-cheap looking but expensive-not so cozy chair, and stare at my monitor all day long. i sound boring? wait till u actually live like me. i spend my entire day sitting on this plastic chair,staring this samsung monitor, thinking what color shud i use for that wall. and when i finish choosing my color which will end-up being rejected by the bosh, i will then stare at the samsung monitor again, this time trying to control other people's life in SIM, when my own social meter is, if i am a SIM, will be red already and i'll be shouting at the person who play me in SIM. and if i am lucky, the bosh will call me like at 11pm to tell me that he need this or that redo. but on the bright side, i do occasionally get some interuption from my baby niece, who will bang on my bedroom door, trying to release her anti-social aunt from her own cave of anti-social. baby fasihah rocks!
and the highlight of my day is of course, the get-together-to-watch-some-soap-on-tv time! this is the time when everybody in the house gather in front of the tv just so that we could be annoyed by the evil aunt who wants all the wealth for her family. guess all the annoying people in real life is not annoying enough that we have to watch tv just to feel more annoyed. ok, there's sum grammatically incorrect bout that last sentence, but i dont really care. i know my English teacher, Puan Noriha wont be reading my blog. and even if she does, she cant find me anywhere in the school compound.hahahhaa....

urgh...my stinkiness are starting to affect my cpu.i should stop and take my bath now. i wonder if the water that i use is free of charge today..if it does, i should bath for like 2 hours, it is free after all...selangor rocks???!!

aku seorang pekerja yang malas

2008-06-01T21:08:00.001-07:00

aku tengah takde idea. eh silap,bukan tgh xde idea, aku tgh xde mood nak bekerja. dateline dah nk dekat, tapi aku masih xbuat apa2. bukan sebab aku malas bekerja, walapon kadang2 aku memang sorang yang malas bekerja, tapi..... aku mmg xde mood nak buat elevation drawings utk projek nenas tu...huhuh...tolong....rasa sangat malas bila pikirkan kena pikir pasal all the details. even nk berpikir pon aku malas...i think i should mark today, 2nd of june as the annual 'malas day' of the year. not that it means aku hanya malas setahun skali. tapi hari ne macam.... the most malas day ever! mcmana aku nk mengatasi rasa malas ini?
ah ye, semlm me and my sis pergi melawat proton showroom just b4 we head to nilai in quest for baju pengapit untuk majlis sanding puteri nadia ujung bulan ne. dekat 5 kedai kain kt nilai tu kitorang masuk,xde satu pon yg sesuai and aku berkenan. xcukup "offwhite" lah, nmpk mcm pengantin, bukan pengapit lah, mahal sgt lah, sgt xsesuai lah, buruk sgt lah....huhuhu..aku paling tak suka aktiviti pergi mencari2 kain ne...nasib baik aku xkawin....but at last, found dis kain satin yg dah siap bersulam, in cream color! walah! tros angkat 2meter, coz nk buat baju je,kainnya pakai je kain batik mak aku kt kg..hehhehe....very cheap me..
but anyway, dats not what i wanna story2. berbalik kepada pergi showroom proton kt bangi tadi, aku pergi nk check out the new proton saga BML, kinda nice lah, klu yg warna hitam,skali pandang mmg ingt vios ker or any other kreta yang mahal2 ne. tp ada satu je masahelah, kna tgu sampai 6 bln baru bleh dapat kereta. 6 bulan!! ramai sungguh org yg nak beli keta tu... sampai kena tgu sampai 6 bulan...xdptla aku bergaya sakan naik kereta baru raya nanti..hehehe...tapi kakak aku ada cadangan yang sangat bernas; iaitu, tgu je kt pintu dpan kilang proton kt tg malim. mesti boleh dapat cepat punya. apa punya cadangan aku pon xpaham. tp at least dia ada cadangan la jugak...
option lain seperti savvy, well, aku xberapa minat compact car ala2 savvy and viva ne..tp xde la bermakna xleh pakai langsung,,,cuma klu dpt pilih....xminatla...so...sementara menunggu slip gaji aku yang sungguh susah nk dpt tu siap, terpaksalah aku menimbang2 dulu, nk beli viva ker, savvy ke BML...ikut hati nk beli BMW je tros.... tapi....

blog

2008-05-26T23:13:00.000-07:00

blog.
why do people blog? as a way to express ourselves? just to fill the need to say sumthing to whoever feels like listening/reading? or maybe just following the trend, i think. feels like everybody is blogging now. and like a friend of mine said, ada blog yg when u read it, u'll feel like the person behind the blog is sooo interesting, full of opinion, with great aura. u imagine the person behind the blog as charismatic and cool as the blog portrays them. and sumtimes, on my part, i feel like a very small person compared to all these great people with great charismatic blogs. but the reality is, an impressive blog doesnt mean the blogger would be as impressive as the blog. why? i came across a link to an acquaintance's blog a couple of days ago. and the blog, is sooo impressive, interesting, and cool. and after reading the posts, if i've never know the blogger, i wud imagine that he's everything dat his blog portrays him, cool, perfect, self-opinionated + everything nice to say about a guy. but in reality. surprise, surprise....!! he is such a boring, uncool guy, with nothing to say most of the time. he reminds me of a guy i used to know in primary school who always spend his time at his desk at the back of the class, alone...
so i guess.. for sum, or maybe for many of us who blog, it's a way of escaping reality..escaping real life and for a while..be sumone u can only imagine....in virtual reality...in blogs...