i missed u

he read my blog.
i never for once, ever, thought he'll read that anniversary post, let alone leave a comment.
not 1, but 2.
" i missed u"
yes, i missed u too. but suddenly i realize, i dont miss him as the 'the bf' anymore. i missed him, as a good fren which i lost. the prize i have to pay when i decide to have a bf rather than a dear fren, more than 3 years ago.
amazingly, it doesn't hurt as it used to be, no heartache. and ironically, i cried myself to sleep, just 2 days before the 'comment incident'.
without i even realize it, he, now seems distant, unfamiliar, and a tad bit boring. ha ha ha
i guess, maybe, just maybe, my heart is finally free. it may not be whole yet, but finally is free. the heart feel so light...

so aidi,
yes, i missed u too. but just as a fren that i lost, a fren that i care about...finally...

and so miss fiance,
u dont need to be alarm by my presence. he luv u, enough to marry u. nothing will change just becoz he miss me. that's just the way he is. u told me urself, u know him more than i do...

but then again..
we never know.... do we??
pisang boleh berbuah lagi???
*smirk on my face*