SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!

ok.

first thing first.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!
minta maaf kalau segala apa yg ada dekat blog ni pernah menyinggung atau mensigung hati dan perasaan sapa2.. kadang2 bila menaip, semua benda pun rasa betul. kadang2 bila hati tgh sakit/bengang/marah/sedih, mula la sesedap rasa nk paku org kan...apa boleh buat kan... i'm only human bak kata garfiled. :D

raya tahun ni agak meriah, aku cuti hampir 2 minggu, sampai blog pun xberupdate. bz dgn anak2 sedara yg mcm2 kerenah. al maklumla,tahun ni giliran dua dua abg yg dh kawin tu raya kt Lot 36. suma jadi kelam kabut sbb the 2 two-year-old todlers xleh bersua muka. sbb? yg sorg tu suka sgt usik yg sorg lagi (eventho yg kena usik tu badannya lagi tembam dr yg mengusik). cihah (pengusik) pantang je nampak wawa(mangsa usik), ada je menda dia nk buat. ditolak, ditampar,dirampas mainan...haih... xpnah lak aku ajar dorg camtu... salah aku kah xreti mendidik anak sedara???? ahhahahaa..

tahun ni xberapa dpt berkumpul dgn kawan2..masing2 pun dh ada commitment sendri. jumpak pun sekejap je. and, bertambah lah sorg lagi kawan ku yg dah kena jual : honey bunny dh ditunangkan.. umor dh nk masuk 25 ni, seems like suma org pun kalut nk settle down, buka 1 lagi cawangan family, and i dont really like it... i mean, wooo...24 is young. what's the rush? and the fact that they r all hooked up, and not as free as i am kinda..make me sad??? annoyed maybe? or, just admit it, i'm jealous?? hahaha...

whatever it is, raya is still a success. got all the rest i need, and now am ready to roll!! working time!!

i missed u

he read my blog.
i never for once, ever, thought he'll read that anniversary post, let alone leave a comment.
not 1, but 2.
" i missed u"
yes, i missed u too. but suddenly i realize, i dont miss him as the 'the bf' anymore. i missed him, as a good fren which i lost. the prize i have to pay when i decide to have a bf rather than a dear fren, more than 3 years ago.
amazingly, it doesn't hurt as it used to be, no heartache. and ironically, i cried myself to sleep, just 2 days before the 'comment incident'.
without i even realize it, he, now seems distant, unfamiliar, and a tad bit boring. ha ha ha
i guess, maybe, just maybe, my heart is finally free. it may not be whole yet, but finally is free. the heart feel so light...

so aidi,
yes, i missed u too. but just as a fren that i lost, a fren that i care about...finally...

and so miss fiance,
u dont need to be alarm by my presence. he luv u, enough to marry u. nothing will change just becoz he miss me. that's just the way he is. u told me urself, u know him more than i do...

but then again..
we never know.... do we??
pisang boleh berbuah lagi???
*smirk on my face*

6 days of cuti-cuti..

wargh...
been more than a week yar aku tak blogging di sini. after balik kampung from kenduri Put Nad, i've been quite bz with work. what with 2 projects in designing stage and 1 (which is suppose to be under me) in constructing stage.

yeah...
it feels good to be able to go back home for nearly a week dat day. it's not enough, mind you, tp cukup la untuk melepaskan rindu dekat rumah, my mom and her car. hee.. anyway, during 6 days of cuti2, i managed to spare sum time to book a BLM for me. M-line metallic black. which is expected to arrive in not less than 6 months..*sigh.... apa boleh buat kan, tunggu je lah..but these couple of days,i've been thinking, mampu ke aku nk bayar sampai rm511 sebulan for that car nanti? coz my mom prefer to finish paying back the car loan in 7 years je.huh,letih tu RM511 sebulan...i guess no more makan2 at Johny's/pizza hut/sushi king, regularly. hehee..and maybe have to cut down the expenses for my design books, baju, travelling. wahh... buying a car surely needs a lot of sacrifices..am i up to it yet? i dont like living with a tight budget..huhuh..

anyway,
on another note, Put Nad's wedding was beautiful, and memorable. me and ude went to all 3 events, starting from her akad nikah, reception in Hotel Sentosa later dat night, and the wedding feast at her family house in Mentaloon, Kedah. the akad nikah was soo sweet, nearly make me shed sum spinster tears, but being me, i dont shed any tears at all.hee..and at the hotel reception, i was the bridesmaid (duh!). i look damn stupid in my outfit..dont even want to remember how i look like dat night. but the couples (Put Nad/syafiek + Put's Big bro/Sis I.L) looks handsome together..match made in haven i guess..

owh,
now is the fruits season in my kampung. i got to crack sum mangoesteen which i climb the tree and plucked it myeslf, devour delicious rambutan, take a look at sum dukong (coz its not ripe to eat yet) and indulge myself in mom's delicious sambal petai udang and gulai ikan temenung. its kari ikan kembong for those in the southern part. 6 days is never enough, but still i got to enjoy myself to the fullest. glad i took dat time off, for i'll be quite bz for these couple of months onwards. neway, i'll load sum pics of Put Nad's wedding and sum on fruits which i took around my house.till next time, daaa!!!(macam rancangan kanak-kanak kt tv plak)

aku seorang pekerja yang malas

aku tengah takde idea. eh silap,bukan tgh xde idea, aku tgh xde mood nak bekerja. dateline dah nk dekat, tapi aku masih xbuat apa2. bukan sebab aku malas bekerja, walapon kadang2 aku memang sorang yang malas bekerja, tapi..... aku mmg xde mood nak buat elevation drawings utk projek nenas tu...huhuh...tolong....rasa sangat malas bila pikirkan kena pikir pasal all the details. even nk berpikir pon aku malas...i think i should mark today, 2nd of june as the annual 'malas day' of the year. not that it means aku hanya malas setahun skali. tapi hari ne macam.... the most malas day ever! mcmana aku nk mengatasi rasa malas ini?
ah ye, semlm me and my sis pergi melawat proton showroom just b4 we head to nilai in quest for baju pengapit untuk majlis sanding puteri nadia ujung bulan ne. dekat 5 kedai kain kt nilai tu kitorang masuk,xde satu pon yg sesuai and aku berkenan. xcukup "offwhite" lah, nmpk mcm pengantin, bukan pengapit lah, mahal sgt lah, sgt xsesuai lah, buruk sgt lah....huhuhu..aku paling tak suka aktiviti pergi mencari2 kain ne...nasib baik aku xkawin....but at last, found dis kain satin yg dah siap bersulam, in cream color! walah! tros angkat 2meter, coz nk buat baju je,kainnya pakai je kain batik mak aku kt kg..hehhehe....very cheap me..
but anyway, dats not what i wanna story2. berbalik kepada pergi showroom proton kt bangi tadi, aku pergi nk check out the new proton saga BML, kinda nice lah, klu yg warna hitam,skali pandang mmg ingt vios ker or any other kreta yang mahal2 ne. tp ada satu je masahelah, kna tgu sampai 6 bln baru bleh dapat kereta. 6 bulan!! ramai sungguh org yg nak beli keta tu... sampai kena tgu sampai 6 bulan...xdptla aku bergaya sakan naik kereta baru raya nanti..hehehe...tapi kakak aku ada cadangan yang sangat bernas; iaitu, tgu je kt pintu dpan kilang proton kt tg malim. mesti boleh dapat cepat punya. apa punya cadangan aku pon xpaham. tp at least dia ada cadangan la jugak...
option lain seperti savvy, well, aku xberapa minat compact car ala2 savvy and viva ne..tp xde la bermakna xleh pakai langsung,,,cuma klu dpt pilih....xminatla...so...sementara menunggu slip gaji aku yang sungguh susah nk dpt tu siap, terpaksalah aku menimbang2 dulu, nk beli viva ker, savvy ke BML...ikut hati nk beli BMW je tros.... tapi....